A shining star

Today we lost a beautiful star. He has made his way to twinkle brightly in the sky during the hard nights and shine brightly as a ray of the suns light during the day.

I will make sure everyone I know knows how special Kim Jonghyun was to this world, and how he will always carry on in our hearts.

Ever since I was 12, Shinee was that ONE group that stayed together through everything. I keep telling myself it isn't true. He will wake up, he's just sleeping. Yeah, sleeping. He's tired. He will wake up. please..

but I know it's not true. He isn't sleeping. He's gone..

I have to convince myself that I want to stay in this heartless world. I laid in bed just staring at the sky from my window, begging him to come back. I went and sat in a bathtub and found myself thinking I should go join him and leave this cruel world. But he wouldn't want that. My friends and few caring family members wouldn't want that. I have to stay here and fight the battle he lost in his honor.

In his honor i'm going to sing his song "End of A Day" this may for a performance. I want to make his legacy known to everyone who isn't aware and spread the message that depression exists and there are people who care.

I miss you Jonghyun. I miss you so damn much. I remember the smiles you gave the 12 year old me who had already attempted suicide twice. I remember the laughter you brought to me along with the rest of SHINee.

May you rest in peace.

I love you.