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This is important.

Often we don't see a reason in staying alive but there always is. Even though it might be exhausting to stay alive, even though it is painful and we are suffering. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for many years already and yes, there are days when living is a lot harder than usually. But there are days when it gets easier. You might not be able to see it right now but I promise you: it will get better. It is not only a reminder for you but also for myself because I do forget it sometimes too. It will get better. You are not alone, if anything fails, know I am here. Maybe not 24/7 but you can leave me a message and I will reply whenever I can. 

The news of Jonghyun probably hit us all hard. It is a painful reminder of how fragile life is. But it should also make us realise that we should do whatever we want to, that we should go for what we want, no matter how hard. Go for it, fight for it, live for it. He gave many of us a good reason to live, a way to deal with whatever was bothering us and he stood up for many of us. And even though he is not alive anymore, he is still here. And it is our job to keep on carrying his legacy. To give it to the people around us. Sometimes it is hard to stay strong for your own good but find something. Find something that makes you want to stay around and strong, no matter how small, no matter how little. Make it your thing. 

Because a kitchen sink to you is not a kitchen sink to me. ♥


Things that might help you deal with loss: watch Baymax/ Big hero 6. Give it a chance. 
Especially if you do not think you have anything to hold on to: give it a chance.

And maybe listen to Twenty One Pilots - not the music, but what they are talking about. They have many inspirational words and, aside from them openly talking about depression and anxiety as they have it themselves, their way of speaking often calms too. 


Also, the year is nearly over and see what you have accomplished: You are alive. And you have no idea how much this already gives to people around you. To me, even though I might not say it often enough: It matters. You matter.



At first I honestly did not want to make a blog post about this topic but I have seen so many of your struggling and I just want you guys to know this.  All of this. Maybe you won't believe it now, but I hope that one day you will understand. Yes, you, I am talking to you right now, the person reading this! 
I am not giving up on you. You might not understand it yet but people need you.
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I'm not giving up on you. So please do not give up on me too. 

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