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ㅤㅤFirstly, I just wanted to say how much I missed you guys and this site. ;; as awesome as a break away was, it got me really appreciating rpr for what it is: a cesspool for the creative and the zany. a little hub where i've met friends of all backgrounds. we all have our two cents to give about it but dammit, at the end of the day most of us are still here.
ㅤㅤi told myself all sorts of bull when i went on that hiatus. said i'd only come back once i felt ready, and i'd only be ready after maturing into a new woman. i gave myself this dr. phil peptalk and went about the last few weeks dumpster-diving into my soul to figure out the kinks in it... and you know what? i realized that it takes way more than a month's reprieve to truly fix yourself. i've got friends who walk away for years and still come back the same. maybe even a little worse. i've told myself i've gotta do better day in and day out, but there's gotta be a hidden "this time..." in there, yeah? i thought so too. and i think i've found the means to make it happen.
❝ it isn't what you think you are that holds you back... it's what you think you aren't. ❞
ㅤㅤi told myself all sorts of bull when i went on that hiatus. said i'd only come back once i felt ready, and i'd only be ready after maturing into a new woman. i gave myself this dr. phil peptalk and went about the last few weeks dumpster-diving into my soul to figure out the kinks in it... and you know what? i realized that it takes way more than a month's reprieve to truly fix yourself. i've got friends who walk away for years and still come back the same. maybe even a little worse. i've told myself i've gotta do better day in and day out, but there's gotta be a hidden "this time..." in there, yeah? i thought so too. and i think i've found the means to make it happen.
❝ it isn't what you think you are that holds you back... it's what you think you aren't. ❞
ㅤㅤfirst off, one of my biggest concepts for 2018 is definitely going to be centered around self-love. because with self-love comes self-care and self-appreciation... and honestly, who's gonna love and adore ourselves better than we can? it's a hard pill to swallow, something that can't ever come easy. i hear it takes the sort of dedication that gets people up in the morning. i think back to the tragedy with jonghyun and the responses to it, and really that had to be the biggest eye-opener for me. so many of us post about how often we starve ourselves or deprive ourselves of little joys. it seems like less of a confession and more of an acclamation. like "oh , look how little love i'm giving myself! that's how hard i'm working.."and i hate that we all think hard work equates to how much you suffer... i know for sure none of you are actually saying it, but it's become so so so common and accepted that it feels this way. which is ironic because so many of us will turn around and expect our characters (extensions of ourselves) to be loved and adored in rps... and how could that really even happen when we can't even love ourselves? "i'll never find love. no one ever wants my charries." are you sure you aren't speaking yourself into that dismal future?
❝ in reality, comparison is an act of violence against the self. ❞
❝ in reality, comparison is an act of violence against the self. ❞
ㅤㅤyou'll hear me say this 30248324 times, but this year is the year to embrace your inner goddess. as cheesy as it sounds, it's also extremely true. it's stupid of me to ask you all to smile and be happy all the time. nothing is ever ever wrong with feeling legitimate sorrow sometimes. nothing is wrong with losing your way. in a world as catastrophic as this, i'd be worried if you all weren't just as dynamic. depression is a thing. mental illness is most certainly a thing. and that's just another aspect of ourselves to embrace. "hi, i'm viv. and i'm nowhere near a perfect person. i'm hard to be around sometimes and i tend to act before i think, which leads me knee-deep in regrets... at the same time, i'm creative and resourceful. i love rising to any challenge i'm given and making a new standard." you can do this as many times you want, both with physical and mental things. it's all about accepting yourself for what you are and knowing just what you might want to improve on to make yourself even better (so long as it doesn't harm or totally alter you).
❝ No one is you and that is your super power. ❞
❝ No one is you and that is your super power. ❞
ㅤㅤthere's so much i'm looking forward to this year. i'm using the new year as an excuse to finally get around to these things, but honestly this all needed to be done ages ago (plus 2018 is the year of the dog, and guess who's under that zodiac yo). among things like commitment to healthier lifestyles and better way of thinking, i'm working on embracing my more mature, womanly side. i'm 23 years-old, honestly. it isn't something i brag about because on this site that feels lowkey haggard. but i realize i need to stop running from it and commit to acting like it. i can't crack for . i have no time to be in chatrooms 25/8. all of this and more i need to start embracing. nothing's wrong with carrying myself a little differently. flamboyant and quirky? sure. but also graceful and intimately comfortable when the time for it comes. you'll see me throwing muses around all over the place because i really do think women of all walks of life need to be appreciated for what they are: purposely flawed and made to turn heads. ; u ;
— Viv。
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