my history throughout my three years on rpr.

I'm drifting away from this site more and more everyday but so is everyone else. In a couple of months I would've dedicated 3 whole years to this site, but as my time spent on here gradually becomes less and less it makes me remember why i even got on here in the first place. Why I never stopped using the site. I was like 11 i guess in 6th grade. life was new. I'd never been to middle school. I was so hormonal. I never rped before i got to this site. I would've never found this site obviously if i didn't find kpop or at least shinee. When I got into shinee that's when i found out about shipping. That's when my love for jongkey fanfics came alive. I could spend an entire day from sunrise to sundown reading jongkey fanfics. They were truly my otp. It was wattpad then archive of our or idk works ider, and then asianfanfics. One day i was reading scrolling down...maybe a little too down. I never knew that asian fan fics had other sites. I clicked on roleplay republic to see what it was. I legit had to look up what roleplaying was before i joined the site. I thought this was the opportunity to make my otp be somewhat real on my own terms like I was one of them. It was fun for  awhile. rps here and there. Learning more how to roleplay. It took me a couple months to become a pro. Fast forward a year later. I was 12 in the y 7th grade. Now I wasn't on this site to just rp anymore. It became more than a roleplay site since I didn't really have many real friends anymore. I always got bullied and everyone was fake. Also being the only kid to like kpop. Literally everyone clowned me. At this time I felt suicidal. I was late to school every day and it wasn't my fault. I kept getting in school suspension for it. And just when i thought i had friends they dropped me faster than a sack of potatoes or they acted like they were my friends and the only good friend i had I could only see him on the bus. I spent every second on this site just to distract myself from the world. I never talked to anyone in my family. I shut everyone out. I only spent my time roleplaying and talking to people on this site. Feeling everything that happened on this site. Laughing. Somehow made my sad miserable life more pointless. I never got any sleep. It made me feel like being happy meant sacrificing important things for a smile. My grades plummeting down the drain. My family never knew of this. Actually they never knew about anything... i made my life secretive. I told everyone i was 18 and graduating. I thought i'd be cool. I've found great people on this site whether they were just being nice or just trying to talk or roleplay i've made happiness with them. Some of them I still talk to on here today and they still make me happy. Then i went to 8th grade. I moved after the first quarter and lemme tell you this. All those annoying ers i went to elementary school with 2-4 grade were there. All of them. I've never wanted to cry as much as the day i walked into that school. Rpr has saved me from doing a lot of things to myself. It has made me settle with myself. It has brought me feelings i never knew I could feel. Or more like not hate people as much as I'd like to. Not everyone is bad. Not everyone is good. I know that being online and talking to people I don't know is bad. But sometimes people just need that. Sometimes people need to know that people can like your personality before judging you for your looks or your background history. Now I'm 14 a freshmen in high school and i feel like ive matured because of this site and that sounds crazy yes but ive never felt so old and so meh about life and school. Talking to people older than me is better than talking to people my age cause they're just as stupid and as childish as ever. And i've realized i don't have to deal with this bull. because they're the ones full of bull not me. I've suffered and it up my . Really im just tryin to thank rpr for saving me for three years. For three good years.