Don’t have to read if you don’t want to; tbh ignore if you don’t want me to ramble bc that’s what I did

But like so many of my friends don’t see me anymore and it’s not cause I’m not around. It’s either A: I’m sleeping bc I have to work two jobs bc one is an unpaid internship and I need pocket money; B: I’m working one of those jobs; C: irl life takes priority hands down; D: I don’t like admittedly a handful of people here and I don’t associate myself with them so I don’t show up when they’re around; or E: I’m more inspired elsewhere at the moment  

Some people are get upset or sad or mad and stuff when I frequent one rp more than another or if I’m not around but I can’t really help what goes on in my life. And I always say y’all can tag me because my walls are a thing I don’t always get to. But usually I’m the one tagging first. 🤷‍♀️ I dunno I’m in a mood from things having happened these past few days. It always grinds my gears when people get upset at me for not being on this site 24/7 or even always answering because the muse isn’t always there. Or when there’s that one person or those few people I just don’t vibe with who dominate an rp I enjoy, maybe not dominate but i dunno when someone rubs me the wrong way, anytime i see them, I tend to just not be around and I find myself less and less visible. Or when people take my moods and make it all about them like I know who they are. 🤷‍♀️ 

Lol I just want to live my life. 

On the bright side, after almost 4 years I’m taking my driver license test next Wednesday and fingers crossed I’ll pass. I don’t have a car, and honestly I’m my city you don’t really need one and there’s hardly any parking, but as I grow older having a license in case of emergencies and stuff will be helpful. I’ll have to buy a new one next year because I don’t turn 21 until 2019 and they have two kinds of licenses in my state. 

Another bright side, its early but tbh I can’t believe I’ll be leaving my teens behind in a few short months. I’m not all that worried but I’m also kind of worried. Like I’m doing okay, I know pretty much what I want to do, I’m doing internships and working so I can chisel out in my brain what I don’t want to do. I also made up with a friend I lost in high school due to typical high school things and miscommunication and we didn’t talk for almost four years but like… I’m so happy we made it. It used to make me cry thinking about our lost friendship because we were so close. She actually introduced me to this website. She was honestly one of my best friends then and I hope it will be better this time around because I know it will be different. 

Tbh I can’t wait to move back on campus for my junior year. Living at home, while nice and I appreciate the help of my family, they aren’t the best when it comes to me being sane and mentally healthy. 

Also grayfox bebs I miss you if you’re reading this. And I heart my cucumber if you’re reading this. And all my bros and sons. And my new friends like lazyssi and synapsis. And old friends like LocKey and raproncha and seollady. Andolder friends who know who they are. 

Typos galore bcmobile rpr hatesme.