like these days i just wasn't being myself anymore. so she decided to like ignore me and stuff. like she still talks to me but she seemed distant. so like i did sense that something was wrong so i also kinda avoided the gang. today i helped her take her stuff home and chatted her on wa. then she kinda went like
"can i be real with ya?" i was like "yeah fam" and she started telling me abt the things she hates abt me. i mean i know i'm an ahole so i just listened to her. but i felt kinda hurt tho that she initially wanted to just like ignore me for the rest of her life. but bc God had eyes and probably didn't want us to get like awkward so he made her leave her stuff behind which i saw bc i left my stuff at my desk too.
so like she told me and i listened and i admitted that i was a piece of and all. i really wanna try to change all that but i'm just... it's... i... i'm being dramatic but i just.... s ighs for an eternity.. i just wanna stop talking to people i don't want to talk to people and hurt people bc i'm ing dumb and i'm ing bad at being good.
i'm still thankful cause at least she did spill the beans in the end and put me in my place. tho i think i'll just end up bottling myself up too much and die of cancer.
but issokei. that's one less asshat on this world.
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