I messed up, didn't I?

If you see this (I think it's easy to figure out who I'm talking to)...

I shouldn't have told you about my plans despite knowing that it would only make you unhappy.

I shouldn't have told you to forget what I said either because it's the same as telling you to ignore which is impossible as we both know.

Telling you that I'll try harder and change is useless because I seem to make the same mistakes over and over again.

I just.. want you to know that ily and that I'm really sorry for everything I've done. You're probably gonna be like.. mhm but yeah.. I mean it.. I really do ;-;