a thank you to those for the messages you gave me, and a thank you to those i know

i don't know what to say or how to emote properly right now. but like... i haven't stopped smiling since i logged on and since i read that padlet. for those of you who didn't know about it and don't know what i'm talking about, today is my birthday and a great friend of mine (the teehee saying dingbat with a sparkly ) decided to gift me with a padlet (with the help of one of the sweetest and coolest people i know). i'm not gonna make this a long message (i hope), but it was the highlight of my day, and probably the rest of my year. today was kind of... difficult, and it all happened so fast. i spent most of it stressed out and disappointed, but i wasn't going to make it about me... even if it is my birthday.

i wanted to give you all something (it was going to be a layout or a few layouts, or just something that felt appropriate) because i usually give stuff to others on my birthday, but i didn't have time because of all my commitments. still gonna try to do it this weekend if i can. but that's besides the point.

i want to say thank you to everyone, whether you left me a message or not, and whether we talk frequently or not. i consider many of you friends despite that, and it doesn't have to be my birthday for me to feel loved and appreciated by you guys. i often want to do little things like make appreciation blogs or those blogs where you cheer everyone on, but i don't want to be annoying and i have all this running through my mind all the time i often forget to actually sit down and do it. i feel like i owe it to you all right now though which is why i made this blog.

i'm sorry i'm terrible at keeping up with conversations and such with all or a lot of you, but i do appreciate everyone of you that has been in my life at some point and i think about you guys all the time. you guys have been very kind, supportive, precious in your own little ways, and blessings to me, and you all helped me learn and grow. and for that, i will be eternally grateful, even if i at showing it sometimes. i said this wasn't going to be long, and i feel like i haven't properly expressed my grattitude because my mind is a mess and i'm all nfkdnak rn, but i love you guys. so much and more than you could imagine. and i'm really happy i got the chance to meet you, know you, and befriend you. thank you all so very much for being here for and with me!

p. s. happy birthday to everyone else born on december 6th! i think there were 2 or 3 other users here who i share a birthday with, but i don't think i have them added and i don't know their usernames rip. also i know i posted this at the very last hour of the day (it's 11pm my time), but i've been gone and busy rip.