Yeah another bland blog sorry idk how to make cute on mobile lol and I’m not feeling a layout S O. This blog is lowkey kinda useless. Mostly for my own benefit and if anyone knows me at all I really don’t put personal shiet on here, and if I do it’s definitely not in the form of a blog. This is more so a reflection type thing than anything else.
It’s literally 3am and I’m wide awake so it may just be my thoughts getting to me. So I made a blog like a month ago or so about someone having me blocked. It be like that sometimes. Even if I still don’t know what I done. Well come to find out three people have me blocked, so now I’m like : ok what am I doing wrong here?
This isn’t a and moan blog post because as much as I hate getting blocked, I took time to reflect. I wasn’t always the best person. I’m still not?? I know I wasn’t always the best of friend when it came to keeping in contact often, I always left for months at a time, breaking promises to people that I’ll always be there for them. Despite going through my own , I never should’ve made a promise I couldn’t keep. I can be very impulsive. Ic and ooc lol sorry. But I try to work on that. My characters can come off as cocky arrogant little s and I pick with people, I can immediately be written off as an . Sometimes I have too much sympathy or not enough. There’s a lot I need to work on still but reflecting back, i think I’ve become better at holding my tongue, I’ve become better at being honest in an unbiased way. I’ve become better at actually talking to people and opening my mind. I dunno where I’m going with this anymore— lmao
i just wanted to apologize. I’m not apologizing in hopes that the people that blocked me will unblock me. If you don’t want to talk stuff out before cutting a person out of your life or without giving a reason to them, then okay. Good for you, I don’t care anymore. I’m apologizing to everyone who has ever felt hurt by me. I don’t think I was ever genuinely mean to anyone or hurt them- however, I don’t get to decide that. I think a lot of people need to hear this : you don’t get to decide if you hurt someone or not. If they say you did, then who are you to say you didn’t because you don’t know how they truly feel. But I apologize if I ever made anyone feel like they didn’t matter, I’m sorry if you think I was ever trying to be rude to you, I’m sorry if you think I ever meant to belittle you and push how you feel off to the side. I apologize.
I mostly wrote all this hoopla for myself. Selfish I know. So I can feel less burdened by it. People have me blocked for a reason and I’m sure there are people who don’t like me, it’s inevitable especially with my personality. But I just wanted to get this off my chest because there’s so many people you affect (effect? Lmao) on a daily basis and you don’t even know it. Apparently I didn’t know it either. Regardless, I’m a better person now and I don’t think I was a bad person then, but even so despite when you’re doing your best you can still do bad things. It happens. Just make sure to be a better you.
that was really long and gay, anddddd if you read up till now then you deserve a cookie and all my love tbh. Anyways stay strong bubs and remember to love yourself. Self-love is the best love.
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