... :(

As soon as I try to do something and manage to start digging myself out of the hole, everything bubbles back up again.

It’s like I’m hanging onto the edge of a bottom sinkhole and everytime I’m ready to pull myself and grab the rope or hand, that help gets ripped away and is replaced by hands dragging me back down and voices telling me that no matter what I do, I’ll never be good enough and that nobody gives a . That no matter what I try I’ll always mean nothing. That I should just give up and stop even trying

I’m just so tired of it
I’m trying my best and it’ll just never be good enough