Struggling and planning

So, if I'm honest I've been really ing struggling

and because of that my room is a mess which is making me struggle even more

So I'm making a pledge, I'm going to take a bag of trash out twice per day until my room is clean

Maybe that'll help me stop feeling like I've been cast aside by everyone? It might me feel like I'm actually human and worth something again if I get it sorted?

I don't want to show this really, but I figure that if I do, maybe I'll be motivated more to actually sort this out and get my life in order if I keep posting progress pictures

Please don't be a , I know it's ing disgusting already

My room

If anyone has advice on how to start feeling like you actually exist, please feel free to drop it in the comments?