Sometimes I wonder how long it'd take for people to message me if I didn't message them first

But like

I'm too clingy and needy and get paranoid if I don't message people quickly enough XD

I prefer to annoy people with my love

Anyway dumb aside I feel as though I'm deflating rapidly and I'm going flat and I'm not sure what to do.
I'm actually going somewhere on Wednesday so maybe leaving the house properly for the first time in two months will help?
I don't know, wish me luck?