all i want for my birthday...

is a big booty hoe!!!!

ok jk and i'm sorry for double posting but here are some things i've been looking forward to since this month started and some things i feel are important to share with you all:

• things i've been looking forward to:
  • CHEESECAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • my next paycheck (comes in 4 days!!!!)
  • coding, rp, character, and general inspiration to strike (all of that has, but i haven't figured out what i wanna do with it all yet)
  • new aus (even though i can't commit to 'em long enough to join/stay, i still get happy to see them)
  • still cheesecake my guy
  • the random high i get on my birthday before i start drowing in those Super Reflective Deep Thoughts
  • those Super Reflective Deep Thoughts
  • drinking again (i will have one drink because i work later today rip, but i usually only drink on this day tbh)
  • giving a lil sumn to somebody today (idk what that something is, and i don't know who i'm giving it to, but i always like to give people things on my birthday)
  • finding new musical aritsts to enjoy (newest one i've found out about was naïka, give her songs "head in the clouds" and "vultures" a listen!!)
• things i feel are important to share:
  • i am stressed as and currently busy, so please bear with me, but i'm slowly starting to dilly dally a little more on the site (at least when i can afford to), so you should see me around a little more maybe
  • i've been wanting to write lately, but basically only do so in dead rps MFDLSMFLG if your rp/an rp you know is dead and i'm there, you can ask me to write with you, and i'll probably say yes but don't count on it and don't expect much because ya be struggling
  • regarding layouts: you guys always pm me about them when i'm at work or in the middle of something, so i always forget to respond to you, but to all of you wanting to know if you can still use my layouts or get the codes to my layouts, the answer is no. you cannot use my layouts anymore. seems i forgot to mention that in my last blog, but i've said it to a few of you individually that i don't want my layouts to be used by the public. i know i probably can't stop all of you from doing so (es be es), but out of respect for me and my work, please refrain from doing so. i've juggled with this and went back and forth on my decision, but this is final until further notice. i don't want you to use my layouts. i will also not share any new codes with you guys from now on. even if we're friends. i want to be done with being a public coder for now, and i feel like this only makes sense to do. please respect me and my decision and do not use my layouts.
  • also regarding layouts: if you want to learn to code, and need help with doing so, i'm willing to be your mentor and help you with the process. i'm not good at explaining from the very beginning and i'm not about to tell you how to do things from scratch every single time you want to make a layout, but i'd be glad to help answer your questions on how to do things. in fact, we have a whole community for that here on rpr full of rpr's coders, baby coders, designers, and whatnot. 
  • regarding rps: i've said this to a few of you already, but i won't make aus here anymore. or just for the time being. my last blog was surprisingly not about that (i was tempted to buy a $60 cheesecake when i only have 100 something in my account and i needed a voice that wasn't my own to tell me no and hold me accountable for it), and i know the struggle is going to be real because i make a ton of rps (most of which are aus), but idk. if you see my talking about making an rp, pls yell at me and slap the impulse demon possessing me ig. i'd rather not waste my time doing it now. frankly, i have more important to do than run rps, but that won't stop me from joining them from time to time. i still like to kick it.
  • regarding friends: i'll keep this fairly short and sweet, but i'm thankful for you guys. you've all taught me a lot about a lot (both good and bad things), and i always think about you guys. whether we still talk or not. i'm happy to have met a lot of you.
  • regarding my birthday: i was born at midnight, and idk why but i like... vibrated and felt my heart do a thing when the clock hit midnight lmao. also, i just wanna say a quick happy bday to those who share this bday with me. i know there were a few of you on this site, but idk what happened to you, so i'll say it here instead of individually.

ok um i feel like i've said a lot. too much tbh. but my mind is going a mile a minute and i wanted to get a few things off my chest while i had the energy. thank you all for clicking if you did and thank you for being apart of my life thus far if you were, no matter when you were. oh! and have a kickass day/night! i'm gonna go cry to exo and (mainly) shinee now!! :D