I Just Want It To Go Away

Last night...

I had fallen asleep... And it was perfectly normal.

This was around 1am....

At around 4am I woke up with an OVERWHELMING sense of anxiety....

This only happened after seeing my biological father's face on the screen...

I spent two hours sobbing, my mind racing with questions...

I just want it to go away... I want answers.

Why didn't he want me? Why didn't he want my sister?

What did I do to deserve being abandoned by my f--- Donor...

The last time I saw him was almost 15 years ago...

These dreams only started around a month ago...

And I realized all I wanted was answers...

But all I got was anxiety, tears, and harmful thoughts...

So... I apologize for not getting to replies...

I'm so tired... I'm emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted...

If I owe you a reply...

I promise... I'll get to it soon...