another blog where i'm thinking things, also includes questions

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so, in looking through my old rps for inspiration and realizing that i had a freeverse rp way back in 2018 (opened it on 04/20 too lol), i am admittedly tempted once again to reopen that rp as well as a lot of my other rps. this might be what i need right now tbh, so that makes me want to do it more, but... at the same time, i'm not sure i should. impulses tell me to open it right ing now, but my thinking mind tells me that not only do i have two appointments and assignments due tomorrow, i also have my job (and/or the fact that i'm losing it) and finals to worry about, so i'm actually going to continue holding off on opening anything immediately. there's also me being unsure if it's a worthy investment of my time and energy, but that hasn't stopped me from acting on my impulses before, so i guess we'll just have to wait and see what i actually end up doing with this. probably going to succumb to the temptation soon if i consider past behaviour and how long i've been sitting with this feeling. should i do that, it may not happen for like... another week or two. if y'all are able by then, would you guys join something like that?

tbh i just keep running into the problem of having too many characters and plots on the brain, but nowhere to really experience them, and that's why i'm like "maybe it's time to freeverse" and stuff. don't know if y'all can relate, but if you can, what do you do to appease this feeling or, uh, suppress it, i guess?

oh, and unrelated, but i've been trying to get back into coding regularly, but i'm honestly so lost on what to code any time i attempt to as of late. i'm the type of coder who doesn't plan things out or design things beforehand and just goes in somewhat blind, improvising my way to a creation. any of you who can relate to that, what do you normally do to kickstart your coder brain and get those mental images of layouts you wanna make? i'm thinking maybe because i'm trying to make a set of rp layouts, that could be part of my struggle, but idk... i haven't seriously coded in so long man, it all feels kinda foreign to me.

oh oh, and one more thing, but what's your guys' opinion on possibly bringing back reviews of rps? not doing a whole thread dedicated to it, but just... the process of offering honest feedback on rps we join with the intent to help improve them and review/reflect on them as we go. don't focus on what you think the site will do with something like this, just give your personal opinion on how you would feel about having your rps reviewed, reviewing rps, and seeing other reviews of rps. curious what your guys' thoughts on this will actually be despite believing i'll hear the same i usually hear. guess you could say i wanna see if opinions have changed and stuff, idk.

ok i lied, but i promise this is the very last thing dnsjanjfgnj have a great day/night and please take care of yourself too!

update with more thoughts: i said this in a few comments, but after sleeping and thinking on it more, i'm thinking i'll most likely not do anything solid with the freeverse rp thing until the end of the month or until next month. mostly because i'll be out of classes, but also because my health may have improved by then. even if i did decide two weeks from now to actually go through with it, it'll still take time to get things done. gotta figure layout and how i'd want it to work and all that, y'know?

also, with the review thing, i want to clarify that i'm not talking about review shops/threads/rps. please read what i said above and read, uh... my first reply to saorsa (third and fourth paragraph) and i think my reply to erigom for more information. i don't remember exactly what i said now, but i explain things there.

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melozennie 3 years ago
yeS PLEASE I'VE BEEN CRAVING A FREEVERSE RP FOR FOREVER but also, you should definitely focus on real life first ;;; i find that i always enjoy my characters and roleplays a lot more when i don't have a bunch of other things going on at the same time in real life, no matter how creative i want to be in that moment. as for trying to appease having too many characters / ideas, i tend to just write them down in a google doc or something similar, bc it still feels good to me to get them written out and come up with ideas along the way ? but i know that for others that can feel very different from actually playing the character, so while i get satisfaction from it, others may not :') sometimes, if i'm rly feeling up to it, i just write starters and posts as if i'm roleplaying with someone or just by myself, kind of like a writing exercise ! as for the other two i'm,,,, also not coding much lately w h e ez e and i've never personally reviewed or seen reviews of rps but it would definitely be interesting to view opinions ! tho i think my main concern would be the people who can't tell the difference between constructive criticism and outright bashing, whether they're giving or receiving it. aksdjfhsh soRRY FOR THE GIANT PARAGRAPH AS WELL but i also hope you're having a great day / night !! and that you're taking care of yourself <3 sending best wishes and pleasant thoughts your way ╭( ・ㅂ・)و
saorsa 3 years ago
So the impulse thing: don’t do it. Focus on your real life first, we already know this, we talked about it briefly lol I don’t think a freeverse of all rps is a smart move rn either because people are busy with either exams or upcoming assignment deadlines(in my case, otherwise I’d be totally keen for a freeverse)

Coding: mood. Big fat mood. Whatever you do, you’ll figure it out and maybe, if ur nice enough, you’ll re open pixel gallery ;u; but a girl can dream hekdndk

And review rps: yes. I think they’re fantastic and really fun, the only issues I see with them is that I don’t think there’s enough rps to review at any given time because of how small the sites gotten. Non-au’s are a dime a dozen and idk, imo they’re all the same. The other issue is that you’d need somebody to be in most, if not all, roleplays that open up when the review shop commenced and idk how feasible that is!
saorsa 3 years ago
I’ll put out a more detailed comment later cause I’m mad busy with work but I wanted to say the idea for roleplay review: YES PLEASE THEYRE GREAT


*whispers*andletmeinonurreviewcrew*whispers*
sparklygayassglitter 3 years ago
*looks at the clock*
erigom 3 years ago
i think the best thing with creative thoughts is to give them attention. doesn’t have to be a full out blown out plot or rp, but maybe storing it somewhere and any thoughts that come with it either in a physical notebook or digital notes. some people do fics with these sorts of things, whether they be short twitter, tumblr, or just under 1k fics. that’s kinda what i do? but i would love to join a freeverse in a few weeks. i would try my best to keep an eye out when you open it!

as for the rp review, i think it would be fun and maybe something to use your brain for. i don’t have any rps myself to ask for being reviewed but it would be nice to get some constructive criticism without adding someone to the team.
pxssionfruit 3 years ago
holds your brain and kisses it
u doing amazing sweetie!
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