im such a weakling.
today was two-a-days for cross country, but we made it so we practice for seven hours instead of going home and coming back later. 8AM - 3PM.
i thought it wasn't going to be a problem at all.
the early morning run we did was two miles, but the group i was in went the wrong way so we ran three miles by mistake.
near the end of the three miles, my left foot was beginning to throb.
my left foot has been having sharp pains in the middle of my foot for several days now, but when it had began, it was dull.
now, it's just intense sharp pains whenever i take a step, even to walk. it was only worse when I ran.
we had team bonding for about two hours before we did our last run for the day, a three mile run.
since the beginning of the run, my foot was doing the sharp pains again and i even ran weirdly to keep it from hurting with every step, yet it didn't help much.
the slowest boy on the boy's team ran beside me (and i found out that he likes me /doesn't like him back ;-; ) and kept asking if i was okay and i told him i was.
after a while, he passed me and i was the last one in the cross country team. last. i hate that. being last.
i tried to keep up with the guy, but going downhill slowed me down because i couldn't step in the middle of my foot for the fear of having the pains again.
when i finally reached the end of the run, my coach said "there she is, thank god" and i went to walk over to the rest of the team and he looked at me and ask "are you okay?" and i told him i was.
then, he asked "is something on you hurting?" and i couldn't lie to him (he took psychology in college) so i stayed quiet because i wanted to run tomorrow too.
he said after i didn't reply "you're not talking so something is hurting you then."
then i freaking broke down into tears because i was embarrassed by being last and my foot was throbbing.
i cant believe i cried in front of the whole team.
i didn't even know i was tearing up or anything i just burst into tears.
i told Coach about my foot and he said that it would be best if i went to a doctor to get it checked or if the trainer was in, have him look at it.
then core work out for abs, which were hell because i hate planks.
when we got to the school, the trainer was in and he said it might be my ligaments because he pressed on different parts of my foot and one of the areas hurt the worst, which is this one bone that's typically really hard to break.
he said that it probably wasn't broken and told me to ice it and stretch it out and if it kept going for the next two weeks, we probably had to go to the doctor.
i iced it after what he had said.
but now that im home, another part of my foot is hurting and im sitting down instead of moving now. typically my foot only hurts when i walk or run, but now it's hurting when i do nothing.
seriously foot can't you do something else besides this?
i have two-a-days tomorrow and the rest of the week and i really do want to run. i typically hate running, but i want to run so bad.
i don't know if my coach is making me run tomorrow or not, but i want to run.
but i feel like such a weakling for crying in front of my entire team like that because of my foot and embarrassment.
more importantly, in cross country, pain should be the last thing on your mind, yet it seemed to be the first on mine. im not following the mentality of a distance runner.
i don't want anything like that to happen again.
i made my coach worry.
my sister told me that Coach gets worried when other people cry and that's what i did to him.
i don't want to make him worried.
foot stop hurting now.
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