This Isn't Just RP: A Reaction To Everything That Alters My Reality

I've been roleplaying for years now. The addiction started when I was in high school. This sharpened my writing skills and eventually, I started writing stories, and then, fanfiction.

I wanted to try writting .

Because 50 Shades of Grey (This is the lamest book ever, I didn't finish it. Stupid writing style. Sorry to the fans but just, no.) ,Sleeping Beauty (by Anne Rice; damn I wasn't able to take this! I couldn't get past book one; it's too much for my squishy heart), and Lolita (thumbs up!). Also, because Anterograde Tomorrow and Arbitrage.

So, I was introduced to this site.  And the first annoying ad that came to my wall was of kpop high. Then I said, Hey, why not? This could help me in my writing experiment. So I went to the offered link and got myself a girl, a ed up family who are all my school/classmates, and a groupie who liked playing roll the dice and slapping teachers' butts and stripping in the pool - I'm surprised we didn't try . 

Some things wouldn't last, though. Today, I was reminded by my partner about deadlines and . I was like, Holy Macaroni! I am a student yeah!  I hated how I've been trying to work on my research paper, my book report, and my movie analysis, and fail. It's so frustrating. I've tried. Instead of researching though, for the whole week, I've found myself stalking players ting in dorm rooms, in stock rooms, in the pool. I found myself ting with someone, too. I couldn't stop refreshing the OOC page because pets, and eye poking, and weird grandmother, and slapping people, and Nickhun the frog.

I had to leave though. Yeap.

And so I did. 

And so I left.

And so I lost.

No more stalking, no more running, no more food fights on the rooftop, no more diarrhea brown floor-waxed gymnassium floors, no more non-existent cafeteria food, no more kingkas, no more trio.

And so I left.

And so I lost.

I thought: Hey, it's just an RP! I signed out. I closed the tab. I stared blankly into space and well . I felt more alive inside that chatroom and I feel more of a played character in real life. But then again... I had to leave.

And so I lost.