What I have to say

What is up with todays generation? Giving up so easily without a fight.

I am writing up this today for the reason that I have seen two people through messages talk about suicide, its not the way to go, its not even remotely good to talk about it, its depressing and leaves everyone who cared for you behind hurt wondering what they could have done better. I am going to tell a story about my own experience with it and maybe just maybe you will see that I am trying to teach that suicide is never the answer. What makes you do it? Yeah every one gets sad, everyone goes through hardship. Honestly that's life and it is not something that is ever going to be easy.

I know that being happy isn't the easiest of things either, but think about what makes you happy be it friends, writing, reading or talking to people, think of the things you do successfully because that will bring happiness. The reason why I am bringing this up is because I lost my mother to the nasty claws of depression, she ended her life three years ago, she hung herself in her own bedroom, she appeared happy and everything, she didn't open up and after losing my little sister's dad she lost it compeletly, I found her to be honest and I felt my heart shatter, I thought that the day that I was preparing my mothers coffin would come at a much later date. She was healthy she had lots of friends and  she was always active, that is why I will never truly understand why she left me and my sister behind. The last three years have been tough, I wanted to study become something other than the person running my grandmothers shop but seeing as I couldn't do what I wanted I devoted myself into the position and quickly became a workaholic because it distracted me, it kept me busy my mind didn't have to think about the pain of losing my mother and seeing her as she was, the last image burned in my mind will never leave me.

I guess because I know the pain that comes after I don't want to see people throwing their life away just because it's too hard right now, I have lost my mother, my grandmother and a child I was expecting, It is hard to keep happy but when I think of my sister I find peace, I find happiness as there will always be someone who loves me for who I am and that they dont want to change me. Family isn't just blood relation you know? if you have troubles with your family then your friends are also home as well, because really if you think about it, they are your chosen family, they bring you happiness, laughs and lastly I think hope, hope that there is something good about life, about this world and then too about yourself.

When ever you think suicide is an option think again about the people who love you, because they will miss  you when you are gone, don't say no one will miss you as that is a lie, just really think is it worth the pain of others to go, is it worth it? the answer in the end should always be no because even if you don't see it there is always something worth living for. 

This is just a message that I thought would be important to share, sorry to bring up past experiences but when you feel so much of something and need to share it that is when I could hope to teach someone, I hope my message is read carefully and that it isn't seen as a cry out for help but as me sharing knowledge, I want to try and make a difference when it comes to depression and suicide because no matter what someone will always end up hurt if it happens.

thank you for reading my message

if you wish to share it by all means do because then more people will see that Suicide is not the answer.