I’m not sure why I’m suddenly so down. I was laughing moments ago then I just shattered; and I shattered into microscopic nothings and lo and behold it was a silent crumbling. I’m not sure why. I’m suddenly feeling so lonely, so alone albeit I’m surrounded by noise though minute, creates ripples in the air and it’s coercive so I hear them all. But I’m still sad as . Why. Why? I’m just sad. Maybe laughter isn’t the best medicine after all?
Maybe I just need a mug of hot tea. I haven't had tea for a month now.
I was thinking about falling from somewhere real high and my heart started stuttering, and I'm suddenly so excited.
And I just seriously want to cry and maybe I will but I can't not because I'm not allowed to, I just can't I don't know why! I don't like not knowing why! This is why I don't play charades! I don't care about the what the who the where the how. I want to know why because! It's all because goddamn it! Everything's an ellipsis and a because and a cause to an effect. So I want to know why. Why? Because I want to know why.
Comments
You must be logged in to comment.