It's just knowing, that the one person you held onto dearly, the first, the very one, the one who got you kick started into all of this, basically grew tired of you, ran away, made promises they didn't keep and left you hanging like a dumb loser. It hurts to know that you talk to everyone while I wait here, hoping for a sign of life. Why do you make me worry for nothing? Why do I suddenly mean nothing? We shared stuff. I trusted you. I TRUSTED YOU. And you turn your back on me and leave me gaping at the wounds bleeding profusely in my chest. Why did you do it? Was it so hard to just send a "hey hello"? I was waiting, waiting, waiting. I wasn't even expecting anything more than a hello, how you doing and I find out, not even from you, from someone I don't even know, that you don't want to see me. You don't want to hear me, listen to me, look at me, see me, be around me. Why. Did you know that this would hurt me this much? I thought I knew you. I thought you cared enough to at least give me closure. I don't know whether I should laugh, cry, or scream in utter rage at what you've done. Why. All I can ask is WHY. WHY DID YOU DO IT? WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST TELL ME SOMETHING? ANYTHING? WHY DID YOU LET ME FIND OUT THIS WAY? WHAT DID I DO WRONG?
what the hell did i do wrong.
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