Why

Why does everyone like making my life miserable.. The only thing i have now are a few online friends and my long distance relationship with my girlfriend...

Stop.. i-i can hear you making fun of me in the kitchen with your friends.. you like making me look bad infront of everyone... And even my mom won't help.. my dad just ignores me.. my suster keeps being a .. my grandpa ignores me.. i need help.. at first when i was a kid.. and my mom used to hit me.. i didn't know what child abuse is.. i thought it was normal to hit your kids everyday.. but turns out i was a fool.. they let me out of the apartment for 6 hours once.. i kept ringing the door bell.. no one would open the door.. until my nieghbors got back home.. i thought i was like every other kid who makes a mistake.. but i got fooled... i should've done something about it from the first time they hit, or yelled at me for pointless reasons.. everytime i try doing something about it now.. they do it even more.. but atleast i got them to stop keeping me out of the apartment last year...

and i wonder how i didn't get a mental disorder til now...