Do you ever

Do you ever think that your worthless and should just give up.

do you ever have those flashes of sadness and small pains that make you think the worst.

Thinking things you wouldn't ever think in the past

you are so stupid. They defiantly hate you. Ugly. They don't want to be your friend anymore.

I'm scared to talk  anymore half the Time. My friend and me had a long talk. Well she talked to me half the time. Just talking about how I acted. I'm glad she did, even though it hurt. It hurts to know I scare my friends. I should just stay quite. I hurt people's feelings. I hate my self for that. 

I'm sorry for ranting...even though nobody's reading this. I don't talk to anybody about this stuff. I try but usually the subject gets changed so I figure that means I shouldn't bother. I know people know I'm sad, but they don't know what to do. They just stay away. I wish I could talk to someone. I just want to disappear. 

Having a hug from and friend and then just a smile out of no where would be heaven.