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Wanna know how i feel about now? 

Like that..... i feel like crying..... idk maybe it's because im bed ridden and i cant do for myself like ive done most of my life, but im feeling pretty down and depressed and lonely.

 But still.... ive gotten so lonely around here lately 

I guess there are just times where a rper gets to a point where they dont see a point in doing it. I wonder, why do i even rp here anymore? No one ever talks to me... no one ever replies.... why bother?  But i still stay because i have this tiny hope inside that SOMEONE will come along and rp with me. 
So i spend my day laying here watching dramas and movies and listening to music checking RPR every 5 minutes because im hoping that someone will show up for me to rp with.... even though it doesnt happen. 

I mean i know there are some of the people I rp with who are very busy or have special circumstances and such, but those i understand, im just happy to get a reply from them every now and then. 
But when you're looking at your 22 characters(or so) and NO ONE is getting replies, no one is talking to you, no one bothers to even say hi its pretty depressing. 

I try quite a bit to rp with people, i post in the OOC room and i ask people on walls but they hardly ever get back to me -sighs- 

Is it so bad to want people who will rp with me in 3rd person giving me good long posts that can keep me entertained and keep a plot going?

Is it that hard for people? 

-sigh- idk..... 

Im feeling like just leaving everything, but i know i wont do it -shrugs- ill just be that character on the side who's always inactive until the admin throws me out for it 

x-x