wow. such things. much sad. very birthday

So it's my birthday tomorrow.

or today depending on where you are at.

it's the 28th okay?

so I decided to tell all of you and tell you how much I love you so that you never forget it okay?

becuse I really do love you all

like

a lot

and I realize that I end up forgetting some of you

and I'm really sorry

I am just so air headed 

and I seem to forget what I was doing and close out of a page at random without thought

this makes it hard to remember who I was talking to

Just poke me or somehting It'll help lol

I know excuses are lame

but I still love you

so come here~

On another note

I want to say a couple things for Robert because I haven't really had the self control to type anything yet

Saturday night I was in the middle of the homecoming crowning at my old high school

Since I was the previous queen I was headed onto the floor to present the next queen with a crown

as I was getting ready I recieved a message from Michaela, or as you know her CoordiLeana

she told me to come back as fast as I could because something happened and it would ruin my night

of course I knew right away what was wrong and had to keep myself from breaking down then and there

but I knew you would want me to be strong so I smiled for the pictures and waved to the crowd

but as soon as I was alone it hit me like a train

you were gone 

I just want to say I'm sorry

I hadn't replied to you in a few days because I just kinda felt lazy

I hadn't said a word to you in a week

and now you're gone

I just hope you know that I regret tht deeply

you were always sweet and kind

I know that I didn't know you as well as most but I still feel a hole in my chest from your loss

every conversation touched me as you made me laugh

and the nights that we sat up doing homework together will stay in my memories forever

I'm sorry and I miss you~

I'll see you again someday

I love you~