*Sighs* | *Spazzes so hard*

Why do i feel like i dont belong anywhere? From school to parties and even family / friends. Am i really that much of a up who's a to everyone? I always feel neglected and ignored. Am i always the one thats not gonna be cared about? And the thing that pisses the out of me is that kids who are younger than me, ing treat me like , , a retard, some ignorant that ing stays with her laptop all the ing time. Well do they even know why i ing stay on my laptop all the ing time? Maybe its because i dont wanna hang out with y kids like you who have no ing respect for your elders. Okay and heres the thing right? Theres this chick who is one. ONE. Year younger than me. Yet, how do those y kids treat her? Nicely. So. ing. Nicely and repsectable. even my sister does it. Like... this morning she broke my ing earphones and i swear, if i was holding a knife i wouldve shoved it up that skinny of hers. she didnt even ing appologise. I swear... i just wanna break down and cry now, cause my best childhood friend isnt here so i can talk to him in this ing party. No one... wants to ing talk to me. No one... wants to ing care about me. Heck no one gives a about life. So why should i have one? Maybe its because i'm a worthless daughter that was just a mistake. I wish i wasnt the oldest. I wish i wasnt born at all. I wish i wasnt ed so that people could actually respect me for once. I wish i was loved more... but guess what? In reality.. all these ing wishes im making. Are crap and will never come true. And this is why i go on rp. Its because people love me here, keep my company and understand me. Unlike the people at school or at home. I'm just a nothing to them. I really dont know what i'll do everytime we have a family dinner. I'm just never happy with them. I just get depressed cause i have no one to ing to talk. Nor does anyone wanna ing talk to me. So yeah.. thats my depressing life for you's.

Now... to change the subject and mood. For Valentine's Day yesterday. I had the best present ever. As in... THE BEST. Okay wait. *FAILS SO HARD THAT I WOULD DIE SOON; CLEARS THROAT AND STRAIGHTENS MYSELF UP* Anyway... so.. during Recess and Lunch. My crush.. a.k.a Marshmallow. Sat. Down. On. My. Freaking. Table. FUUUUUU- I CANNOT EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL. LIKE. LEGIT. His voice was... heaven. His smile was... bright and radiant. His eyesmiles was... CUTE!! >< And everything about him was... amazing. I was the happiest girl alive. But.. the only bad thing was that. His first impression of me.. was..... a . I know, i know. - HOW COULD YOU KAITLYN???! HOW COME YOU'RE LIKE THAT??! WAEEE??? - Shut the up. Look. At least i was honest with myself and not being plastic around him. And besides.. he doesnt even know i like him, so acted as normal as possible. Anyway yeah... I LOVE YOU MARSHMALLOW~

Okay over and out. I'm done. *Bows and dies*