So thats how it is...

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My dad ended up going to my school to have a 'talk' with my principal and the teachers who know me. Apperantly my mom thinks I always give my dad a bad reputation at school or basically anywhere I go or do. My mom thinks she wasn't a good enough mom for me because I always tend to give her pain and headaches in the end for not knowing anything. Apperantly I always show a poker face to everyone around me, because inside I honestly hate everyone. My family suggests that I should just keep my loud mouth shut. The more I say something about myself with my friends the more i'll get hurt, ending with a big fall in life. The students and teachers in my school, think i'm a lesbian or a freak cause I show skinship and affection towards my friends. So what if I do it? There are other ing people who do it. Worse than me, they ing e and have in the school bathroom for pete's sake! man... I honestly don't know what to do in my life anymore. I always get brought down even if I have my friends there to help me up. But sometimes... I feel as if i'm just a bother to my friends. I bring them down. I stop them from doing something they want to say or do. So from now on... i'm going to be the Kaitlyn everyone knew in year 7. The quiet, small and stupid Kaitlyn. I will prevent myself from showing skinship like hugging my friends from behind. Cause clearly, even my friends think i'm a creep. They always back away every time I just want to hug them. See? No one seems to understand me. But thats okay. Cause thats always the case anyway...

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dayniel 10 years ago
I'm really lost as to what's going on and all the details, but I know that something serious is up.
You need to talk to someone okay? I know you might think there's nobody to talk to and you're all alone but there is at least one person. Even if they don't help, it's good to talk someone to let it all out. I guess blogging about it counts.. you still need to talk to someone.
And as for thinking your friends find you a bother or whatever, if we're the ones who you're talking about, then that's not true. I'm sure this is applicable to the others as well, but I honestly don't think of you like that. You're not a bother at all, you're actually fun, funny, and you'd always make at least one person laugh everyday. You bring happiness. That's a good thing isn't it? And I don't think you're a creep. I mean, some people might just not like hugs or forms of skinship /coughlikemecough/ which doesn't necessarily mean they don't like /you/

What I said is probably useless to you and I know you always say you won't change just by reading our comments but at least I tried.
We love you Kaitlyn♥
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