Everything.

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AuthorAnodyne

Created Apr 30, 2013 18:45:29

Status [M]

I am 18 or older (continue)
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Not even going to format because I don't give a , to be honest.

Well recently I've been getting a lot of from people at my school and no, I don't meet I'm receiving things. I meant I'm getting yelled at, bullied, and ignored by some of my friends and those few I held so close seem like strangers.

Then when I get home I feel like and my family look at me like I'm just overreacting and they don't even bother to care. Oh, I can't forget the family fights too. I still remember before, my grandmother was pushed down and she hit her head on a wall and made a hole. May I say she's ing 74? Also, my elder brother choked my dad and my sister locked herself away in her room with a knife and I could hear here crying. I hate this. I hate it because I can't just shrug this off like it's not a big deal because it really is.

I know I shouldn't be saying my personal here because:|
1 ) No one would give a .
2 ) It seems like I'm whining, because I know many who have it way worse.
3 ) Because it should be a private family matter. But how can I keep it private if it's just ing up my life?

Many years have gone by, with fights in my family and it just keeps getting worse and worse, and now I'm afraid the last one we had has finally done it.

To those whom I roleplay with, I'm sorry for the late replies.

In those roleplays where it's just me and you talking, then you can either wait ( and i'll love you forever ), or don't ( i'll just quit for the both of us).

In the third pov roleplays I'm not sure if I'll have time or even want to reply because I'll just everything up like I always do. That goes the same for the first pov too. Either wait or don't, and I'll either force myself to reply or quit.

Hell I'm just thinking about quiting rpr all together. It's not like anyone would care, and it's just another weight off my shoulders. I don't know though. I really loved meeting everyone here and I really love to roleplay but I feel like this site is taking control of my life. I wake up, roleplay. I roleplay until it's time for me to leave and I'm not ready, I didn't eat, and I get yelled at for taking too long. Then already I don't eat lunch, and when I get home I roleplay again so I don't feel hungry. I know I know it's unhealthy. I've been told. But do I care? No.

Oh look at that, it sounds like I'm whining and complaining again. Woo.

So I'm sorry if I sound like an right now, I'm just aggravated, and I keep getting annoyed by everyone no matter who it is. I just need to be alone.

Whatever. Just ignore this, I'm sorry.

... So how was your day?

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kkamtaem 11 years ago

Ah, I don't know if I have the right to write anything here, because we didn't really talk ooc, except for crying over taekai but whatever I still tought we could be friends, which is why I sent you a friend request... But gaaaah, I'm being nonsense as usual.

I don't really think you are overreacting or whining, and look at all the comments, we actually give a fu.ck, okay? And it's better if you have a place where you can write the things out of yourself, it makes the things a bit easier. And this is not just something random, because well... When I had the almost same problems, I kept it in myself, and well, in the end I tried to commit suicide, and it's scary to know that if I wouldn't be the loser who I am, I'd be... dead. But that doesn't matter, ever since that, every time I have problems, I write them down, and it helps. A lot.

And you replying later is totally understandable, my Taemin can wait for his Jongin~~ Hehe~~

And ugh the rper thingie is almost the same for me orz, every time I don't reply asap I feel guilty and I think the other person is mad at me. But I don't think leaving rpr would be a solution, because you might gonna search for some replacement, and bamm! your life would be controlled by another thing. Just take a hiatus maybe?

And I know this all might be bull_____, and if I'd make you even more annoyed I'm sorry, I just wanted to try to help... ^^"

elysian 11 years ago

/cuddles, cause
doesn't know what to say.
I love you. ; __ ;
I'm here for you, always.

My day was ok.

BangJaeLoallDaeHimUp 11 years ago

P.S. Dude, that rp thing, I totally feel ya on that one (not to sound gangster or anything x) but it's addictive, I do agree, though you shouldn't skip meals because of it, okay? No really, don't become unhealthy over such a habit, believe it or not, its not worth it, at least your well being is more important than that <3

BangJaeLoallDaeHimUp 11 years ago

My day isn't irrelevant, sweetie, it's okay to take the time for yourself and vent. Don't dismiss it as if it not important, because it is and you are important too; never doubt that fact.Now I can not deny that I do in indeed know how you feel, for my family is so bad that I was excommunicated from them complete, but again my issue is not the matter at hand, the matter is you and your troubles. It's gonna be hard for you and your siblings and I'd advise you to try and protect your younger sister as well in cases such as those. Also if the situation gets too serious please do contact the police, because even I, who doesn't know you quite well, would be devastated if anything were to happen to you <3
But another thing, don't ever think that no one will listen to you, because what do you think I'm doing right now? I want to help and if there is anyway I can, please do tell me, even if it's as silly as a sybr hug :) Also if you're getting bullied, fight back >BD you're only as weak as you make yourself to be and your friends? Well they must be blind, because you are a beautiful human being that deserves good company around them.
Sure, there may be others out there that have it worse than you, but that doesn't mean you're any less significant than them. Your problems matter and its not considered winning if you want to talk about them. Hey, and if you need to be alone, thats okay! I'll let you in on a little secret that always cheers me up ...*whispers* Tumblr kekek xD I don't know, its pathetic to bring up tumblr when there are bigger problems to situate, but really its a good source of laughter^^ AND DON'T APOLOGIZE <3 There is no need, okay? I really hope things sort out for you soon, and don't loose hope, neh? Never Give up, himeul nae, kkumeul hyanghae Never Give Up~! *sings Never give up by Bang and Zelo* lol Well I wish you the best- know you can always come to me if needed, I'll listen, I promise <3 And Good luck!
-love,
oh you know my user name O u <

simplyme95 11 years ago

:( aww! that majorly . I only get stuff like that at my dad's but it's nothing major like you have it. I'm so sorry! Take your time with replies. I only remember rps when i actually remember to check them. Please stay strong.

YoItsYourAngel 11 years ago

So one I saw your kakao message I was just like '_____ dat sheeeeeett' and came. Bwub bwub bwub bwub bwub.....imma fishy ;3;

OH OH OH OG OH A BEEECCCCHHHH IS GONNA GET SLAPPED!!!!! IMMA USE MAH BELT, IMMA USE IT!!

IMMA WEEEEIIIIPPPP A BEEECCCHH, ILLL WWWEEEEIIIIIPPPP THEM

You know my strongness power I inherited from Chu correcto? Well I'll whip a beach ;3; kekekekekekekekekekekkee

Meh...imma give you some of mah lunch, mucho good （＾_＾）

i wuv chu‼！！・…《〕＼￣≧

I remember when I was younger and the hole thing happened to me many times too. One time when I was four, maybe..three or five, I slept in my parents room and hey had a big fight downstairs and I was shaking so hard I hid under their bed out if scaredness. I always hide in small confined places even if I'm claustrophobic ;3; I'm awesome like that, LIKE YOU AREEEZZ

ANYWAYS....: I hugchu tomorrow señorita!

hyosucks 11 years ago

I don't mind venting, you can talk to me. I don't mind ^^"
Hope things are getting better for you
Can I do something ??

DamnTaehyung 11 years ago

That sounds horrible, stick it out for a while longer!

Chaser 11 years ago

I don't know you..
And I can't really say things to you like, "It's gonna be alright" or "It will be over soon"
I can't say anything like that..because I can't relate
However, I know we are both human and at a point we both can have enough of a certain situation.
You aren't alone by the way, are you willing to speak your mind and let it out?
I'm willing to listen~

peppermint 11 years ago

I know how you feel about feeling that rpr is controlling you, and I'm getting to the point where I don't want to rp anymore, but I really think you should eat whether you care or not.
You need to eat. Really. At least care about that.
But if you need to talk to someone and vent to them, then you can talk to me, okay?
Don't go thinking that everything is your fault, either.
And just because people have worse lives doesn't mean that you have a great one, remember that.
Life , I know.

Channie 11 years ago

Hey Jay, it doesn't sound like you're whining okay.
And some of us definitely do care, me for instance. And Sulli I'm definitely sure does too.
Now I would say, keep your head up the sun will come out sooner or later bla bla bla
But I know thats not what you want to here, I've had enough people tell me that, and it seriously doesn't help.
Just know that I'm here if you want to talk, but I'm happy to leave you alone I'd you want that too.
Be safe okay, and stay strong.
<3

-inspirit101 11 years ago

*hug you* I wish I could be there for you, really, my day was kinda bad, then again, when was my day not bad, this RP community will never ignore you, at least I won't

-saranghaeyo- 11 years ago

I have those feels..*smiles*
Just remember, you're not alone.
I know I don't really know you. ._.

Wanna hug?