Expressing my feelings..

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I have a master degree in disappointing people, I'm the worst in keeping relationships alive, I will promise you things I can't even make true. I will make you feel ignored. I will make you feel loved but then I will break your heart into millions of pieces. I'm one of the worst friends you can ever imagine, I won't start conversations and I reply way too late. 
This isn't directed to anyone. 
This is just a warning to anyone who wants to get close to me. 
I don't want anyone to get hurt since i've hurt so many people.. 
So, this is a warning. You want to be my friend? Be prepared to get ignored by me.
 
I treat people like trash, cause i am trash. No, seriously. I am trash. I treat people like garbage cause apparently "i am too scared to talk to people" when infact, i'm just ignoring people. 
Lately i've been wondering if i seriously have social anxiety, multiple times I've had scenarios when I'm horrified to talk to people and even when I had to go grocery shopping alone, I was feeling nervous the whole time..

So, what's the point of this post?
Obviously me asking for attention, and obviously, I'm being sarcastic.
I just wanted to get this off of my chest, since lots of drama has been happening lately.
Also, I've been thinking to leave every RP where I'm not in a relationship, and where I'm RPing with people I love RPing with..

The most negative scenario that's been wandering around my head is to leave this site.. Lately I've been giving this site more attention than school, which is unbelievable in my case. I can't do this year again so if I fail this year, I will have to go to another school.

Of course, I won't leave this site for now, but I will focus more on school than on this site. I will leave lots of RPs, comment if you don't want me to leave a specific RP that I'm in. I won't leave that then.

But anyways, thanks for reading. I appreciate it if you've made it till this far. I appreciate it to the people who are still with me to this day. I love you a lot.

There are no words that can explain my greatfulness to you all.
I love you so freaking much, I will try my best to not hurt you.

I will stop now until this post will get a paragraph lenth...


Goodbye.
 

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cloudystars 10 years ago
bae.. ; n ;
DoctorKimKai 10 years ago
My poor baby, talk to me anytime you need it.
I'm not judging nor anything else.
I'm always there for you, remember that.
NaeKiki2015 10 years ago
to be honest...
that sounds a lot like me so...
i know EXACTLY how you feel..
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