I hope I'm the only one who feels like this because no one should.. Everything hurts, I've felt like crying this whole day because I'm too weak to keep going..
I've wanted to die for so long yet I'm not doing anything about it because of my friends not wanting me to, even though it's probably all lies that they're telling me so I'll stay here and end up even more hurt than I already am I still listen to them because they're all I have, they're the only ones who have seen the true me.. Not the one who's pretending to be okay when he's actually about to break..
Is there really a reason to hold onto something that's already broken? Something that no one will be able to fix?
I'm being a bother to all of my friends because I keep telling them that I'm not okay, that I haven't been okay in a long time. I keep telling them that I'll get over it even though I probably won't because I'm not strong enough to keep fighing for this usless, stupid thing called life..
Why am I still fighting when no one would notice if I was gone anyways? I wish I could just die right now, get lost in hope that no one will notice, why..?
They will never know yet I'm not doing it because I'm too weak to, I'm too weak to end it all and I'm too weak to keep going, I really can't make a decision, can I?
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