Its really hard for me to talk to other characters while I'm in character...I feel like I'm akward and that I'm irritating people when my character speaks or I'm saying dumb things. When people don't respond I think that they don't like me and I did something wrong. I say I don't care just move on but I do care and I hate poking people because I feel that irritates them as well. I wish I was more of a social butterfly. Its in real life too...it's hard for me to approach and talk to people even though I really don't like the kids in my school and could care less if they talked to me, I wish I was more talkative or had people who had the same interests. I just wish I was better....in everything I do I wish I was better, If only I was exceptional in one thing I may not feel this way....I'm a little upset with roleplaying these days since I've had these feelings since the beginning. So I'll be on but I may not respond quickly. I've been quiet and cautious with things in real life and on here...i'm insensitive as well but thats something I can't help, its how I handle situations. I want to do more with life but honestly from now on I just don't feel like talking in school just working...talking to actual friends....stuff like that. Maybe I'm just going through a phase...I'm always happy with my family and my four true friends otherwise I'm just faking the happiness.
Basically I feel very boring and annoying....basic even.
Sorry for my sad post....also sorry for this jumbled post
Bye for now.
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