my life...

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i ing hate my life right now. its so confusing, ing irritating and so ing useless. i dont understand why i was given a life, if all i do is disappoint people and myself. the fact that i cant get anything right even though i try my hardest, is just pure humiliating. i swear man... it. theres just point in trying anymore, if i know that the outcome will just be as disappointing as my existance. i know that some people say come on dude, its okay. you can always do it again. but its been how long since i've been going to school and nothing is really changing. i study, study, study. what grade do i get? a one, thats what. fml. fml. fml. it all. anyway, my life is ing confusing and irritating cause i cant choose. i just cannot choose. . i just want to rip out my brain and heart so that it doesnt have to hurt and ache anymore. like for sake. i wish i was just a robot. people just told me what to do and i'd just do it for them. like a slave or a servant. at least i know that im needed. i wish i didnt just hurt my knee, i wish someone would just crash a bus or a truck or a train towards me. i just really, really, really... dont wanna live anymore. now, i'm not thinking of suicide cause i'll probably never be able to do it. but.. it. its the only thing that seems suitable right now.

okay. bye.

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5423d70eb718bb582a42 9 years ago
when im depressed i tried to reach for help but nothing works for me haha but i found peace listening to some bmth songs i do actually heals from depression
ExoticM 9 years ago
that was me two years ago, depressed and just done cause no matter what i did
it never had the outcome i wanted
but honestly now, i realized it was worth it cause even if its hard to believe now it will be alright as long as you dont give up or put yourself down it'll be alright as hard to believe as that might be
babypie 9 years ago
hey... it might really right now like the fact you feel like everything is really frustrating but you just have to persevere..
like maybe the way your studying doesn't work for you?
school doesn't always determine the rest of your life so it's alright if you mess up a little.
if you ever want to talk about anything or just rant, you can tell me if you're comfortable with it..
i know we aren't close but someone is better than no one right?
-baekby 9 years ago
*just hate themselves
-baekby 9 years ago
everyone has those days when they just themselves and thier life.
don't put yourself down, because it will only make you feel worse.
you'll feel better soon c:
kmbbpl 9 years ago
okay, chill out, please.
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