❤{Back From The Depths of Hell}❤ Ｏｔａｋｕ＇ｓ Ｆａｔａｌ Ｒｅｔｕｒｎ！

Otaku In The Flesh

Yes, I am still alive somewhere on the other side of the rainbow after so many thunder and rain storms in my life.

Now I can relax. Finally.

So, I've disappeared for about two to three months, right? During that time I was in the process of losing my mind and jumping off a bridge to escape all the fear and pain ( I didn't jump or even have a bridge to do so, but I did have same insane suicidal thoughts)

I will say that all those thunder storms did happen while we were trying to find a place to live in after having to move out a house gone wrong. In the process, I have learned the true colors of all humanity, that's even including such people you have ties with as friends and family.

Trust no one. Depend on no one. Have no expectations of anyone.

-Words sincerely from fanficotaku to you

Another lesson is learning how to evolve and change as your situation in life changes as well. It's best to accept what ever mud you roll in and just simply ride. Do not posses fear, because it will drive you mad. It sure did have me ing insane, but I don't regret it.(not like I had a choice anyway)

I think all these maddening situations have also evolved my mind properly for the main female character I will be writing in my new fanfic.(Juhyun/Irene in H.U)

I will pour out all the darkness, enlightenment of reasoning and intellectual through her, just like I do will all my female leads. Really what I do in my fanfics, is take a part of me, give it to my main character and make it much deeper and vast in detail. The emotions are pure, real.

I have been reading all the comments you've guys been leaving and thought it's time for me to return.

I've missed you guys. I know we don't meet face to face, but just having some type of interaction gives me happiness and something to look for in life. (one reason I write also) I find you all very precious just for your very existence.(And that even includes the trouble makers) I'm even glad for those that left hurtsome words, because it trains my mind and shows me the influence of the world. I hold that close to my heart. Thanks for me letting me know that you guys are there as well by commenting. 

But, I will be back on a slow roll due to school and unpacking stuff into our new home. I thought we wouldn't make it, but we did. I thank God, because I was so lost in fear, I just imagined I was in God's palm when I shut my eyes and cried.

Now, I smile, be it through tears, resentment and even happiness. I can handle anything because I will just ride. Lana Del Rey taught me this. My favorite writer and singer. Her words are so inspiring and our taste for knowledge are so alike.

As for my plans, that is to finish Removing The Blindfold first of all. I have just a bit more. I will say there is less than 10 chapters left. Get ready to cry. Then I will publish H.U and trust me the wait is worth it, because this ride will be wildest yet. Ever Kpoper must read.

Once then, Cigars on Ice and Infinite Nights will be on a roll.

I also thought of a name for all my fanfic readers--daydreamers.

You know...I was just looking at the sky(my favorite aspect of the universe) and thought of it. I was thinking of how I missed writing and daydreaming and that you guys missed it too. We all love to daydream. So, see you soon daydreamers~ <3