In Life I don't know what to do...

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I've come to many realizations. It's hard for me to talk to people in my school because I feel like I'm forcing myself to, like not that they have done anything wrong but my feelings just make me want to move away from it all, even my best friend being outgoing can make me feel like I want to get away, because I'm weird but they are either annoying weird or just too outgoing for me to handle. It's not anxiety or social problems, I'm not bullied, I hate no one, like people are just too out there, at least the people I'm near and I feel awkward and out of place. Again really making me want to hide away with my family forever. Maybe I'm just really used to just talking and being weird with my family, I don't know. At least when I graduate I won't have to worry about talking to people in college and making friends, if I do make some then good but I'm not going out my way, it makes me personally uncomfortable. Our interests are probably too different for me speak as much maybe thats another problem. 

Another thing that is happening is, I have no idea what to do with my life after school. Like I get home and sit there like scrolling through instagram, RPR, AFF, facebook, twitter, etc. but nothing suffices...I think of reading but thats not fun either despite having a lot of good books. Listening to music helps but even then I don't know what to listen to to feel better or more motivated I guess. I do homework but thats really it. I keep thinking about deleting my account for here but decide to keep, but I feel bad sometimes because my motivation is getting worse to come on and my other halfs/friends who I roleplay with have to handle it. UGH! What is my life right now?

I keep pigging out! I'm gonna end up throwing up lol XD I'm waiting for the day because I know it'll happen from all the food I'm eating without exercising. 

I just need to once again sort my life out and find some motivation for certain tasks in my life. 

 

GOTTA GO! luv you all whoever read ^.^

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MissMysterious6 9 years ago
why don't you scroll down a list of jobs or- even better do the things you like to do! (i bet people with a fun job are happier than people with stupid jobs and a lot of money) and you're not weird. you know, 'weird' people are mostly the intelligent ones... i mean..... look at albert einstein or someone like him...XD
taenylove 9 years ago
Hey baby. First of all, dont worry, you're not weird
Honestly, I think you're just going through a fase. Like really, I went through that same fase in high school xD
Thats why, dont worry, it will pass. and you'll find motivation again. Just take some time-
And also, no worries, we will wait for you since we know how you're doing ^^
DamnTaehyung 9 years ago
The only things that excite me are things that I'm at but I know I can get better ^u^ like not actual , but amateur. Ambition I guess! Its like a high without drugs, doing stuff i really want to improve on with other people. Thats the beauty of huge colleges. You can find dozens of people with the exact same weird hobbies
ed40a3a21b039f152d4d 9 years ago
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