I know you see my scars. Why don't you care? You think it's a phase huh? Why do I even do it. Because of the whole family. I'm sick and tired of the family. You say you love me. Can I trust you? I'm so tired I feel like locking myself in the room and crying forever. But I can't even do it. Why? I'm scared that you guys will scold me for being useless for being a 'bloody fool'. Why is it that no one sees my pain? I tell my friends my pain but no one understands it and they don't even try to stop me. I got my penknife from my mum's pencil case. Why is it that no one cares? Because I'm fat? I'm ugly? I'm annoying? I deserve to die?
Maybe one day I'll grant your wish. Maybe one day I'll disappear.
That's what you want right? That's what my sister wants, that's what my dad wants. My mum? She thinks its a phase. Or she's just plain dumb. If I told her, she'll send me to a counsellor. Counsellor? No. I don't like them. They want you to stop cutting. But do they ALL understand that it's an addiction? After the first cut, the rest and deeper and there are more. We AREN'T all depressed. We're so stressed. About different things. But no one seems to see it.
It's sad how the world is so blind.
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