Nights you feel worthless

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AuthorCuddle_Koala

Created May 20, 2016 06:36:16

Tags ijustcant

Nihts like theses I want to curl up and die.....my family calls me worthless , while I am eating talk about my weight and says I am fat as a whale, I am not pretty without make up...how can any boy love me when I don't put my hair up, that I am a loser, that I will not amount to anything, when I tell them how I feel they berate me calling me a selfish brat who cares for no one but myself and if them end up dead it will be all my fault.....I don't know how much more I can take I been brooding about this for hours and this is my safe place to vent and express myself. That when I tell them that I feel depressed they tell me I am not and I am just being a baby...they never take my feeling into account it is always them....I try to see their side

When at family parties they tell me to shut up because no one wants to talk about my interest even though one of me uncles loves kpop and likes to talk about it with me. They see embarrassed that I love anime and kpop just because all my other cousin are good at sports while I am having fun with dancing and singing for kpop....they tell me I annoy the family and when I don't talk they get mad that I don't socialize with my family. It is to the point I dread every family gathering I went from a social person to a to myself shut in with my family. The worst part about it they always compare me to everyone "why can't you get A's like your cousin why can't you be pretty like ash......am I ugly....that I need makeup to cover my face...do I need to put my hair up when I like it down because it gives me head aces.....am I that dumb that you have to say that I am never going amount to anything because I don't care about others when I bring everything upstairs for them even if my foodie getting cold or I have to get out of the shower to bring up water for them and they tell me I cause their arguments or their illnesses....that I was a pain since the day I was born....I really don't know what to do....sorry for the rant I just needed to vent this or...or I don't know what I would have done...

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JCH21753 8 years ago

-cuddles you up and rocks you-
-kidnaps you away with me-
Hope you like long plane rides. o/

2ad302e2eb37f1355f7e 8 years ago

I don't think that's the case. When some parents are demanding, its most likely because they are more broken than their child . They take any frustration out on their offspring and hope that the person would make their life financially better. Like a slaving guinea pig.
I have literally no personal experience with this sort of thing. I do have friends who, however, experienced this. Where, if her uncle says that she is cheating on her boyfriend, everyone shames her. Calls her weird and ugly and alienates her both in school and at home. Its mostly just hate on her every time. She doesn't like to see her family because of this and she always feels weak. However, she locks herself in her room and just does whatever she wants. Then at the dinner table, she eats, finish, and leave back to her room.

In the end, I'm pretty sure you aren't ugly. You are probably really beautiful and you try so hard to do what you can. You should really talk to close friends about this or keep a journal to rant out all your frustration. Letting it build will hurt you, okay?

23fe4f75c068b1047813 8 years ago

I've never really replied to one these, but i have to now
If I could take you out of that home and give you a new and lovely family, I would
They don't seem like real family, and all I can say is to get through it with thick skin till you're legal
If you're legal, room with someone or go with that uncle
Don't listen to what they say because they're worthless
You're way better than them
Do what YOU want to do
If you want to listen to kpop, do it
JUST DO IT
-Shia Labeouf

Joyous9175 8 years ago

-huggles you-
Sheesh, no offense
They dont even seem like a family
But hey, here at RPR we are here for you
Don't let what their comments about you get you down
Making such comments isn't what a family should do
Take it into your stride, and in worst case scenarios, just ignore them
If you like talking to your uncle about kpop, so be it.
There's nothing wrong in talking to someone who has similar interest as you
Nothing can stop comparison. I know, i been there before
Just let them compare. Or better yet, tell them "Thats them. And thats what they like. Im different. So just accept what i like."
Whatever it is, dont get their comments get to you <3

vronvron 8 years ago

*huggles you*
I'm here for you if you ever wanna vent or rant <3