disclaimer: i am not really THAT knowledgeable with uality and i don't know much about the lgbtqa community (im also still learning) this is just my own experiences.
i am aromantic aual. i rarely feel attraction and i have little to no desire to have , my libido ain't high y'all. being part of a nonbinary uality is really hard, especially making people understand me and ending up with me saying that i'm bi to make people shut up but that's not really the case. yes, i do like both girls and boys, i find them both attractive but that doesn't mean i'd want to be in a relationship with them or would want to have with me.
i've only had crushes and that was it. before actually finding out what auality is, i've always been confused as to why i can never understand how other people felt when they fall in love, up till now, i still dont understand how people fall in love. it's a puzzle for me. how can someone spend so much time with another person for too long or be able to give everything they have for another. even if how many times other people tell me why, i just- i can't comprehend it.
my parents, even my friends, wonder why i never have a partner and i can't really tell them that i'm aromantic aual for a fact that im very lazy when it comes to explaining. actually i dont even know why i made this blog hahahahahaha i guess i'm doing this because im also very lost, as everyone around me are all in a relationship and they're either straight or pan but never any aual or aromantic person like myself.
it's hard understanding myself, especially when i know i do want to feel how it is to fall in love genuinely, the feeling of holding someone's hand without ever wanting to let go, or planning my future with them. but i can never see myself with anybody, to say "i love you" and meaning it romantically, beinng committed in something that doesnt make me feel so responsible for it.
it's hard you know...
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