These are what keep me living. I'm determined. Determined to do my best, to acomplish my dreams and reach my goals. I've always been this way, I strive to be the top of my class, the leader, the motherly figure. I'm there when others need me and I always lend a helping hand. I live to help determined to make my life count determined to help those with problems I can't solve for myself. Jealousy...that's what fuels my drive, my determination. I'm jealous of everyone and everything. I'm jealous of my friends who have parents who are still happily married, I'm jealous of the friends who's older sibling is still an active member of their lives, I'm jealous of those who's father will be able to walk them down the isle and I'm jealous of those who found someone who loves them. Its so bad that I can't even be happy for those closest to me, I'm just jealous and determined to beat them, to be happier and more successful than them. Jealousy and determination, for few they are just normal parts of life...for me it's what keeps me alive.
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