Highest point to lowest point.....

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AuthorCuddle_Koala

Created Nov 1, 2016 03:31:04

Tags rants sucidethoughs thoughts venting

I went from being the happiest girl ever to being so sad in a spam of three days I was able to go to a concert for a kpop artist as was the lucky girl who was selected to go on stage and got sang to along with dancing with him.......I was so happy he talked to me after the concert saying how sweet I was since I gave him candy for Halloween and he was so cute since I gave him his favorite candy.

but today after having fun with my friends my dad berated me for my friend not closing the door good saying I am lazy and stupid.......that I am good for nothing that he is so disappointed in me for my friend not closing the door good.......I just can't take it..it's always the same with him...blaming me for everything......I wonder if it's better if he didn't have such a useless daughter like me my mom will take his side....I just want to sleep and never wake up...I just can't do it anymore....my mom blames me saying I am disrespectful for having to use the bathroom......that I can't have friends over anymore because I am disrespectful and stupid and dumb..my whole body is shaking as I write this I want to die.....maybe then they will be happy to have gotten rid of a disprectful stupid lazy good for nothing daughter...

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noriyuki 8 years ago

Dear... please don't think like that. Just show you can take your responsibility by yourself.May be your parents don't know how can they show their feeling, what they want to do.Parents love their children.
Try to stay yourself in .

Bowrair 8 years ago

They have too high of an expectation of you. Be like me. Plug in ur headphones without music and don't listen to them. It'll get better, trust me. When you're outta the house, it gets so much better. I was first anxious of leaving for college but now I know it was a good move. I feel better too.
But luckyyyy~ you got to go to a concert! So lucky~ : P savor these moments and look back on them when this stuff happens /nods/ college/adulthood will be a breath of fresh air for you! You can do it! : D

05eb34c50e33534ff795 8 years ago

DO NOT let anyone tell you how much you're worth. You are your own self and ONLY you can say and understand yourself more than any other. Some parents are just so blind and full of themselves that they tend to rant out their own mistakes to their child as a way of trying to be better.
You are a beautiful and loving girl.I'm pretty sure you kpop idol that you just meet would be sad to know that you would contemplate death for the sweet girl who sang and gave him his fav candy.
Be strong and keep fighting against all the negativity that your parents are placing on you. When you're old enough to leave the house, you can go and never have to look back again if its too much. Just keep holding your head high and keep going.. Don't let anyone get in the way of you being you. Sometimes the toughest part of life is getting away from parents like that and trust me, mines are just as bad.
You can do it! Hang in there just a little bit longer okay. Fighting

PikaChen 8 years ago

Love keep your head up high, I don't know what it is like to go through it but don't let it being you down, you are more than that. If you need anyone to talk to you can always come to me, I will listen and try to help you :)

sunflowers 8 years ago

if you really need to you can talk to social services or go to a counselor. you're not useless (no one is) and it's not their right to make you feel that way.

fireandfury_risen01 8 years ago

wow, hey, you can't belive everything your parents tell you! Be strong! I don't know what it's like, ill admit, but I have a close friend who is going through something similar. It sounds like mental abuse, which is one of the worst kinds of it. They tell you that your horrible, but you can't believe that. They just aren't being good parents.