probably just me but

whenever i'm reading a book on the train, i feel extra weary of judgement. idk why

probably because i read a lot of lgbtq+ books and 99.9% of those books have a visual depiction of some degree of ion---

be it like kissing, like with Two Boys Kissing (i sUPER RECOMMEND THIS BOOK TBH IT'S GREAT) or special edition covers of books that are a tad bit risque. nothing is really risque in my opinion but i've gotten the "That's not appropriate in public." or "I don't want my kids seeing that as fiction."

It just confuses me a lot why I'm conditioned to feel concious of the covers of books -- it legit just dawned on me and this is so random but it bothers me too much.

I guess I just don't like when people comment on that, since they'll assume things of me. which i don't give two s about but tbh i'd rather be an invisible little bean rather than someone come up to me and say something about the book i'm reading, even if it's a positive comment

iDK WHAT THE I'M EVEN GOING ON ABOUT LIKE this was triggered from the book i'm currently reading for my eng class and it has a main queer character but that's not the main focus of the book, so the cover doesn't depict any of that and that made me more open to reading it in public for some reas o n ????¿¿¿

OKAY RANDOM RANT OVER I'M JUST OVEr stressed alrighty heh bye