sooooo -

I kinda disappeared well not kinda more like totally but I'm sorta back though I'm not really sure of what to do with myself to be honest. It took me a while to adapt to being back home, the steroids have really done one on my mood, sleeping pattern etc. Like I will be wide awake at 3 am yet during the day I'm struggling to stay awake and I'm like wtf u n u really annoying. A lot of stuff happened too, like loads of appointments and , like after I got out of hospital I had a scan done the very next day and it just back fired and made me really sick and I didn't recover from that fully until two days later lmao. Now I have another problem because my crohns is some what calming down and it doesn't feel like my crohny either yet there is something up with my bowels and so I have to get this nasty scan done next year to see how my bowel is working; basically there are two ways it can be working and depending on which one will decide on the treatment or well next course of action, best case - my bowels are working in a funny way and I just basically have to see a specialist to tell me how to have the perfect poo and yes there are specialists for that lol or second case, my bowels are working in this other way where I will need to have surgery done to put this bag thing in so my bowels when they do work, it basically takes them longer to work and all this other boring and complicated talk lmao. Anyways, didn't mean to brag or bore you guys orz. I hope you are all well and I really have missed you guys. I'm truly sorry if any of you were worried about me ; m ; I am ready to be scolded but I just honestly think I needed a break and time for myself because when I got home I honestly felt so out of place, even in my own home. I never felt like that before but this time the steroids have really effected me and they do a lot to your body, and like I didn't even know they effected your sleep or dreams until the doctor said and I was like ooooh that's why I struggle to sleep at night and I have weird dreams lol I also got a new phone, so I don't have kkt at the moment, truthfully been reluctant to get it because of how it was on my previous phone. However, I have really missed you guys so I might just download it again for you all. Okay, enough about me. Come talk to me because I wanna be really annoying and bother you all and ask how you been and and and and and and and and and and and and and and 

DEAN AT MAMA WITH CRUSH AND ZICO ING ON FIRE 

DEAN IS SO AMAZING 

ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH 

AND TAEBAG TAEMINT I CANNOT EVEN 

NOPE HIS OUTFITS WERE SO ON POINT 

AND I CANNOT WITH HIS BODY 

AND AND AND AND AND AND AND AND 

I REALLY WANT 

A JUNGCOCK X YUMMY BEAR SHIP AKA YUGYEOM SHIP 

ICALLYUGYEOMYUMMYBEARBECAUSEHEISSOYUMMY 

OKAY BYE