the day my poor mother had to birth me, the biggest mess.

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it's my birthday

wHOOPDIE DOO

jkjk but yeah, aging is great man. i've learned a lot this year, i've understood myself more, understood the people around. made friends, lost friends, loved and hated lots of things. laughed, cried, sang, danced, clarinet-ed, and dabbed my way through another year of living.

and boy oh boy was this year cray- i started my last year of high school, and a part of me doesn't want it to end. high school was strangely a secure time in my life- now don'T GET ME WRONG I ING HATED THE OUT OF SOME THINGS. but knowing i had like something to force myself out of bed every day kinda gave me more security in a way.

a n d hi yeah majority of the year was spent on this site, majority of my high school career was on this site. s o yay, thanks rpr for shaping me into the dabbing mother that i am today. ayyee e e e e millennials okno

but yeah, being the atheist cynical person that i am, i don't celebrate many holidays. christmas be coming uP AND Y'ALL KNOW I'M LIT FOR IT --- but i dunno, i consider my birthday my sort of thanksgiving. i'm thankful to my mother who raised me as best as she could with very limited resources and a fat baby i'm sorry mama, even though she could have so not had me and gone on to be like a ing professor or smth smart- and my dad too, even though he says i'm a little pig in german and calls twice a month. and my friends, on here for sure- y'all really shaped me to be the nutty that i am mEEP. and and and yay i just read my sweet luna's blog thingy and it made me sappy ffs but yeah, babycakes i love you lots. tHANks for blessing me so so so so much the later half of this year.

and yay for getting older, and getting closer to being done with school, and just surviving another year because if you asked me a couple years ago or even on my last birthday, i'd probably say that there's no way in hell i'd make it to this age. 

if my dumb can do it, then i'll make it my ing duty to help anyone who needs it to make it as well- reason #1 why my profile and pms are open, i'm forever and always here for you guys.

d abs sappy jess is out- i love you guys. to many more years to come, let's hope !