i dunno

i know there's no such thing as "the perfect friend" 

every friend has flaws and such, but it still kinda when you see someone you care for being distant. i wanna be the perfect friend.

you feel, "did i do something wrong?" and you start thinking back and doubting every single thing you've said or done to them- and there probably isn't anything wrong with what you've done.

but you still blame yourself. g runts i dunno why i try sometimes, i give up on myself literally all the time why don't i just give up on the whole deal?

because i'm sadly too stubborn and friends that i make are too important to me, even if i end up being overbearing. it just hurts when i'm brushed off, thrown under the rug when the person starts finding other friends. but i'm alright, they have their freedom.

i just want everyone to be happyyyyy. so i'll let people walk all over me, since i'm used to it. if you're happy, i'm happy. i'm content. i should be working on my creative writing oh -

alright was the even emo jess talking like idek. it's more of my observations- bUt that's it for noooow i shall be leaving now lol ily guuUUUUuUuuUys