been thinking.

maybe ive been thinking too much for 5am on a now tuesday morning

people change a lot. i like to say we all change for the better and that you can only change for yourself.

i see ive changed a lot. i used to hate the concept of change, now i embrace it. i used to be much more, i dunno the word, outgoing? i'm still very outgoing and your typical eccentric kiddo, but literally outgoing. like into the real world, taking the train to go somewhere with friends outgoing.

the last time i hung out with a friend on a weekend was two years ago- i'm not upset about that, at least i didn't think i was? im known as the #1 bailer in my friends group, count on me to say "oH I GOTTA S T UDY???? WHOOPS CANt cOME"

welp im not sorry about that, going out to me isnt fun. i like to stay inside, by myself. or at least on the computer. by myself still but oh well- my school's prom is coming up, and me being a senior in a school with a graduating class of like 40, prom is pretty important budget wise.

but guess who's not going? tHiS oNe. im not upset? boo hoo i didnt go to prom- not like i'd go with anyone outside of friend group dates.

but that was kind of my realisation point. when will this stop, me being a ty outdoorsman? im off to college in september and the highschool drama will be done and finito. it's been done for two years, since i stopped being an active member in school society. i liked it that way. i still do.

you'd think for someone who has so much time on their hands theyd at least be more active on here :"""""""") this time i am sorry, for being m.i.a

june, ma doods. j u n e. since my school is closing down, i have commencement in june. never to step foot in a high school again.

you'll see me then- for now, i love you guys lots and lots and lots. im sorry for being such a mopey dickwad, didn't mean it. i dont like dumping of the feels, but it's legit 5:30am

n o w if you'll excuse me, i have two more episode of 13 reasons why- yep, caved.

throws all my love and support at you guys- i wrote guavas. 

y'all are great. i miss you guys a lot- i say this too much, but it's true hmph attack me pleasE bombard me q A q

adieu my friends, this episode awaiTS.