i sometimes only hope

that people aren't taking advantage of me e v e;;

im not uptight about really anything on here- i let the other person decide anything they want if we're rping though i make sure i poir my heart into every reply- bc im seemingly that one person who can find muse in a couple minutes if i like the plot enough 

i don't poke for replies nor do i mind getting poked myself, im like a dream lazy rper. but like sometimes i wonder if that's not good? maybe being more demanding is alright

but at the same time i can never do that- if i ever rp relationships on here, it's mostly with a friend or someone im familiar with. so like getting the "i cant reply rn but i'll reply soon i promise!" msg is super common for me on like pms or kkt

and im usually like "sUrE yeah no probs reply when you can schnookums" or i dont even mind if i dont get a reply at all but another part of me is so annoyed with myself- 

eh it's a pet peeve with myself im too relaxed and lenient

but i thrive off my leniency bc i could only pray that the other person is patient with my slow replies and mediocrity. i dunno i only hope that people dont see my chill laid back ways as a rouse to not reply to me but to do the same for others

aND that doesnt annoy me but i feel like it should, and it kind of does. that makes no sense but to me it does- ugh whatever i only have three exams this year but they're all for my important classes like maths and english so im busy but not busy yknow

erases all this me being confused to replace with usual positive self bc that's who i am and i l i k e that

i hope you all are having a good day !! or night, or evening- oR MAYBE MORNING darn you all are amazing little sweetpeas and i'd be so done with everything without you cute people ♡♡♡ okbye