Help!

Hello! I'm looking for the person that wrote this paragraph. It was in a only roleplay and I was Taeil and I think you were Donghae. Please please if this is you, comment down below! I know it's been years but I want to talk to you again!

Lee Taeil, yeah... this guy up there. Can't say much about my complicated relationship with him, but nonetheless, he took my breath away. He really did. I know I have played around a lot in my past, my previous relationship might've sort of been a push for me though. Every time I got into a relationship, I thought that everything will be well, everything will be fine, if I just stick to the rules. But how can everything be fine, when all I ever do is break the rules? And that's what I did. I broke the rules with him, with Lee Taeil. I used to love showing my partners off to other people, show other's how beautiful and gorgeous they are. But now, I'm not the same anymore with him. I don't go around yelling or screaming that I'm with someone... for the ninth time. Why? Because he's for me to keep. He's only for my eyes and my eyes only. I've known him for a little over five months now. Our relationship started off as a simple one, being friends. Around a month or so later, we got closer, that's when Taeil started calling me "Appa". How ridiculous right? But it was cute nonetheless. So we played the father and son game. I looked after him, cherished him, protected him, and even talked to his boyfriend's about their problems. When I'd be away for a week or less, he'd most likely get into a fight with his boyfriend or just get himself into trouble, though he doesn't like admitting it. None of us knew how these feelings turned into something mutual without none of us knowing it, but we found love. I denied that it was love, at first. I really tried my best to deny it all I could. But I couldn't help the attraction that pulled me towards him. He pulled me closer to himself each day, as if only having to thread me by a thin string. A simple kiss turned into something I never thought would happen. He told me he liked me, I, for some reason grabbed him and kissed him. We spent the night together, and well, decided that we'll be nothing more than -buddies. Because that's what we thought it was at that point of time. Just ual attraction. Though, Taeil confessed to me one day while we were in the middle of our activities, pink tints coloring his cheeks as he had shyed away from me, letting the three words fumble and slip pass his lips. How adorable. I continued to deny his love though. He'd always whisper sweet nothing's into my ear whilst clutching onto my shirt, or lay his head on my chest and listen to my irregular heartbeat. And just like that, time forced me to confess to him. It was late in the night, he was sleeping peacefully on his bed with his arms encircled tightly around me, not willing to let go of me. Something in me begged me to whisper the three words into his ear whilst he let slumber keep him sauntered in. Who knew, that the cheeky bunny was not really asleep at all. We've always talked to each other about our problems, about everything that goes on in our lives. He knows my secrets and I know his. He knows me better than I know myself. And maybe, just maybe I know him more than I think I do. Concluding it, I plan on keeping him for as long as I can muster myself up to. He gave me a knew hope, a knew light to see myself in. Being honest, he changed me, no one else. Because I've known him longer than anyone else. Only he can give me that feeling like no one else has before.