Honestly, I've always wanted to make something of myself here on rpr. I always wanted to be amongst the cool kids in rps and I wanted to actually mean something. I wanted to make roleplays that would successful and attract a bunch of people who would make the place active.
But, after awhilee, I can to realize that I have no special skills and I can't be "cool". All I can do is draw somewhat decently and what's that gonna do for me? Not much. Now, before y'all start jumping to conclusions- what I'm saying is, all I wanna do is fit in and be somebody.
Somebody people are afraid to lose.
Somebody people are excited to see.
Somebody who's loved.
My biggest fear is being alone- my mind is a dark and scary place and the haunting of my own thoughts make me tell myself things I fight so hard against when my friends say it to themselves. Heh... It's funny how we're all hypocrites in a sense yet we say "practice what we preach."
But back on track- i just don't want to be alone. But I feel that's what I'm destined to be.
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