dear morning star, babe, baby, lee taeyong,

it's me!  the one who's trying her best to be the best angel for you.  i don't know when i'm going to be able to finish this, or when i'll choose to send this to you, but i don't think it really matters.  i don't need a special or monumental moment to tell you that i love you.

you mean so much to me and there are so many things i want to say about you, that i want to tell you.  and even though i'm not the most eloquent with her words, i will do my absolute best to let you know how i feel about you.

first off, you are the most enchanting person i've had the pleasure of meeting. you simply draw people in with your presence. i've mentioned this before but, you're always talking to others so comfortably and you always make the effort to reach out to others. your enchanting presence does that, it just does that.  you draw me in sweetly, and i never want to leave your side.

secondly, you never fail to show me, even through the little things, that you think of me and that you love me. i'm the type of person that has a lot of insecurities, and i worry a lot about many things. however, you remove those fears, unshackle me from the own chains i cast on myself; do you know how thankful i am for that? you release me from the nagging feelings at the back of my mind, i know i have nothing to worry about as long as you're there with me.

thirdly, i love you. i know you know that, but i need to express it more clearly to you. i have to tell you how deep my love and affection runs for you. i could stay here and say that my love runs as constant as the river flows to the sea, as sure as how the sun will rise each morning, but it would be so easy to. i could tell you that my love for you is wide and limitless like nct's song or the wide night sky above. however, it seems too insincere to say so, to easily use wide sweeping gestures and big words. so i'll say this with all my heart and with all the sincerity i posses. i love you.

"every star may be a sun to someone." - carl sagan

and you, my morning star, are my sun. you help me grow, you shine upon me brightly. i love you. i love you. i'll never get tired nor will ever stop saying it.

you've always said things to me that have touched my hearts. one line that changed me completely and made my heart flutter and go wild. i'm terrible at that, i never know what to say, i never know what to do to convey my true emotions to you. my heart skips a beat and accelerates at the same time, believe it or not. lee taeyong, you've taken up residence within my heart, but i'll never tell you to leave. you will always be welcomed in this heart of mine.

i've come so far and i still don't feel as though i've really been able to express all i feel towards you. you are beautiful and simple words cannot describe you fully, so it would make sense that words aren't truly enough to convey the true extent and depth of my affection. so i'll leave it at that for now.

after all, we're going to have more time together right?

lee taeyong, you are the sun and moon shining on me, i've said it before, but i wanted to say it one last time before i ended this letter.

now, i will attempt to explain each of the links above to you!  oh dear-

the playlist was originally going to be a tribute to you. it was supposed to have and reflect only sweet, romantic, and fluffy songs. however, as i made it, i started adding songs that people might consider, sad, unfitting, depressing, or not applicable to us. but, the more i added songs, the more i couldn't stop. things in life aren't always perfect. that no matter how much we want it to be, things can't always be happy. however, i believe in us, i believe that no matter what turbulent thing occurs, what pain happens, that we will be strong. and maybe that's what the playlist represents. that we are not perfect people, but our love can be still strong and everlasting. love has it's up and down, that's usually what happens with true love, not fairy tale love. and for me, you are real, and i want you here with me for real. so this playlist is based upon that i suppose.

the padlet i feel will be better if you looked at it yourself. the password is my instagram username on my profile !it was pretty fun to make, although, i'm not sure if i can fully explain the concept behind it at all.

and the edits are manips i made of us. it's not very good but, i couldn't help but make it because i wanted to see your face more. i hope you like it! 

this finally ends my letter for you, my one and only, the brightest morning star. i love you, but you know that already, right?  you've always known me so well.

with everlasting love and affection,
kim chungha, your angel