Personal Message
Bright rays of sunlight wouldn't compare to the others smile
as it could also light up the eerie night and make my body perspire
like a complete fool. As much as I despise to experience such a new feeling
I admit that on the inside, within my soul, my heart weeps to grow emotions such as
this.
Happy, sad, or anger were the main emotions that I've always expressed along these cold
days but after time a new day has surprised me with something I have never felt before.
My brain refused to accept such a stupid thing. If it was temporary what was the point?
I would only whisper these harsh words under my breath as I pushed away further and further
but this entity refused to let me go. Instead they dealt with my stubbornness, despite my
denial, my unacceptable behavior, cruel speech that I force out in hoping it would result to leave
me be. But it didn't. The more they tugged, the more I slowly fell in within their grasp and I could no
longer feel the cold air against my body anymore.
Standing in a ray of light, I can only wonder nothing more than the feeling of admiration.
admiration....
admiration...as in...love?
I could never know for sure what it would mean to me, but the feeling of it has grown
within my entirety and it seems that it'll never go away. Like an annoying splinter, it's
stuck within the depths of my skin. Making me become stupid and blind.
making me into a fool that'll stumble and fall over my untied laces..
making me say stupid words that I'd never thought my lips would form.
Love is stupid.
Love is crazy.
But love is what makes me slowly become to realize how humane I can be.
Although I fail to express it with actions, I seem to be able to do so in words.
Though when it comes to being in front of who I admire most-
I become mute and my speech only ends up sounding like a kindergartner reading
big words on a first grade level book.
It's unfair really. Very unfair. That explains how much effort it takes to express love.
Like being in a spelling bee and the spotlight is on you-
But the main problem is stage fright.
I- I-
well-
you know-
I just have this feeling-
I could never finish a sentence without choking back on my words and never being able to
fully express such things.
I could only show a half assed grin and a feeling of guilt.
As much as I receive, I fail to give back.
When the only words I could say are when I settle at the end of an isle
slipping a expensive ring that I could barely afford on that small lanky finger,
and my stupid self having that same stupid half assed grin that I always had back then.
But this time
I wouldn't stutter
I wouldn't loathe the feeling of love
I wouldn't have the fear of standing up in front of all the people that would
be my future family and friends
I wouldn't have troubles expressing my affection
my love
I wouldn't struggle to look you in the face and ...
I wouldn't hesitate to say..
"I do"
For that person has taught me everything
Everything I needed to survive into this cruel world that we have no choice but to call home
The person who, when I stood alone, they crept up along my shadows and embraced me, reassuring
that they'd be with me every step of the way..
That person
who radiates more than the sun itself.
the person
who I'd call
the love of my life.
I wouldn't hesitate to say the words that I thought were stupid back then.
'Could you use it in a sentence?'
Hell yeah I would for pete sake.
"I ing love you"
when I grow up, I want to be luizy’s husband
@luizy /inhALES hard.
luizy, munchkin, cho seungyeon;
you are my precious world within my heart. Although I
May be slightly drunk and there may be a hell of a ton of
typos...just know that what I’m about to say is nothing
but the truth...cause when you’re drunk; you’re blunt
and honest.
I love you, love you with all of my heart and you’ve been
with me through thick and thin, health and sickness..
practically almost as if we were already married.
You aided me in my darkest of days and you did the
same in return...and I can’t help but feel so thankful to
have you in my life through so many years; so many lives
and so many little random talks that we could possibly
ever have.
you’re my life. My everything..and I can confidently say
even as a drunk man right now; I can see myself with you
forever and ever even into another life. You’re my support
whenever I’m weak, you make me crack a smile when I’m
sad...
and you just always seem to under stand me so well...
/slowly tugs you to stand up but I still stay down but on
one knee.
Ive been thinking about this for the longest of times..
for weeks...months...at times when I’m doing something
completely off topic...
but...
do you ever think you could see me sitting next to you on
the front porch ....rocking on a rocking chair
squinting at them damn kids sliding their nasty kid shoes
on our front lawn?
do you think...you could see me coming home on a long
days of work and just embrace me on the daily-
...
do you see yourself with me if I asked you...
will you marry me?
/slips my hand into my pocket and present s a box
and inside a small ring before you/
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