History / About

FILLED WITH DISEASE.

don't open your eyes. you won't like what you see– if only someone told him that from the beginning. maybe then things would've gone differently. maybe he could've still been that sweet, timid boy who only ever wanted to belong. he could've simply pretended that horrible things were impossible to occur.

but that would be a lie. horrible things can happen and there's hardly any stopping them. they are what both haunt and shape a person like johnny seo.

much of the young man's troubles began in his hometown of chicago, illinois. with an alcoholic father, overworking mother, and constant threat of crime, the seo family battled to survive in the notorious south side of the city.

in his early childhood johnny was meek, timid, and highly impressionable. he constantly searched for approval from others and his parents especially. while being an excellent student with a perfect grade point average, he worked vigorously to improve upon both musical and athletic talents. often he would offer to play a soothing piano piece for his mother after she'd come home from a hard day's work or hope to strike a surge of energy into his father who seemed to love basketball so much.

unfortunately mrs.seo was always too exhausted to listen and mr.seo apparently loved booze more than anything. more than his wife, more than his son, more than himself. in the end johnny would be left neglected and alone to face a cruel fate.

BEAT INTO SUBMISSION.

humanity is sadistic and poignant. teenagers most of all. those sometimes vile creatures are the best examples of how merciless we can become.

as johnny entered the pubescent years of his youth, so did he step into a whole new world that was waiting to tear him apart from the inside and out. the stress he felt to make his parents proud soon transformed, hastily growing as pressure to conform to a dangerous and addictive lifestyle.

the boy fell into a rabbit hole of chaos. he succumbed to the "wrong crowd" of peers and soon was on a fasttrack to chaos. first it was ditching class, smoking in the parking lot, maybe a little petty thievery. gradually he descended to excessive partying and a general troublesome nature. he even was convinced to become a delivery boy for one of the neighborhood drug dealers.

by then his parents, old friends, and everyone he loved saw johnny in the worst light. to them he was a no–good burnout who'd lost all value except his thriving instrumental skill. absolutely no one gave him the attention and care he so desperately craved for. at only fifteen years old, johnny was so emotionally vulnerable, so easy to take advantage of.

cue a warm, charming, and significantly older man whose only name of importance was that which johnny referred to; seven. why was he nicknamed seven, you might ask? because it took about seven minutes to give the man exactly what he wanted.

the pair met one night when johnny was walking around town, publicly intoxicated, and nearly blacked out in the streets. seven was a passerby who gave the poor kid a place to crash. he was kind and nurturing to johnny, as well as actively interested in what made the boy happy. it didn't take long for an affair to initiate.

tHIS MACHINE IS OBSOLETE.

few years ticked on by before the sad, hollow life he'd built for himself was far too much to handle. johnny felt as if he were being choked by the hands of each evil that weighed heavy over his shoulders. time for change.

during the summer after completing his junior year of high school, johnny approached his secret lover seven with the fanciful notion of running away together. he genuinely believed that he was in love and they could do anything so long as they were side by side. he thought he could put his faith in every sweet little promise that man gave. wrong again.

refusing to jeopardize his own family and public reputation, seven denied johnny's pleads to escape. a huge falling out ensued, ending with heartbreak and one more bridge burned to ash. feeling as though there was nothing left to lose, johnny made plans to leave on his lonesome.

luckily there was one good thing to come of his affair with seven. completely forgotten by the older man, johnny kept in his possession certain evidence that would damn his ex–lover to prison if authorities were to discover it. using this leverage the boy blackmailed for a hefty sum of cash and a one–way plane ticket that took him straight to the west coast.

never again would johnny have anything to do with his parents, his need for approval, and the bustling city of chicago. of course not all of his past was buried. some of it followed him to his new endeavors.

BLEEDING EXQUISITE RED.

under the golden sun of los angeles, california did he finally feel free. johnny pursued several odd jobs of both creative and less than legal nature. while often serving as disc jockey at clubs or joining sound crew at music venues, he also dabbled into the familiar world of drugs.

however, his involvement was minimal. he was just helping to put together a few simple deals of with his apartment mate and close friend he'd met there in los angeles. yet things got out of hand as they typically do. one night at a huge rager party the two pals were invited a chance to deal something much more powerful– .

ingnoring johnny's suggestion to leave, his friend chose to test out some of their potential product while already piss drunk. the mixture of alcohol with coke caused a massive overdose. before he could drive his friend to hospital, the lad died in the back of his car. johnny was devastated.

rather than face the consequences of his actions, johnny anonymously reported his friend's death to police and made arrangements to flee once more. this time he left the country altogether and wandered through few european countries using a fake greencard. during this time the tainted young man reflected on his life, deciding that he should pursue what he was meant to do all along.

A FIELD ON FIRE.

settling in south korea, his grandparent's homeland, johnny went to work. he began training under a label and took courses from home to complete the high school education he'd previously left unfinished. everything was perfect. a little too perfect in fact.

naturally bad habits die hard. soon enough he struggled with the traumas and addictions of his past. unable to bear managing his work with the emotional pains, johnny opted to take a break from his life. he stopped training and spent a year in paris. there in the city of lights, he fought off his severe depression and strengthened the creative muse he once had as a child.

now the somber soul has returned to begin training as a newly motivated musician. johnny seo isn't totally rid of all that haunts or lures him to darkness. although he is much more confident that he can move onward to new beginnings.

Personality / Quirks

Positive Traits romantic, passionate, humorous, carefree (to a certain extent), independent, open–minded, honest, straightforward, confident, risk–taker, observative, emotional, poetic, mysterious and enigmatic at times, whimsical, friendly.

Negative Traits impulsive, aggressive, violent, secretive, overthinker, blunt, disregard/disrespect for (some) rules and authority, daredevil, adrenaline junkie, possessive, sometimes can become obssessive, manipulative.

Likes nighttime, stargazing, abandoned or haunted places, ghost stories, industrial rock and new wave music, horror/slasher/snuff films, gore, black pansy flowers, queen of the night tulips, succulent plants, clubbing, vodka, studying true crime cases, art and history museums, dark colors (black, grey, crimson, burgundy, midnight blue, violet, etc), piercings, graphic novels especially dc comics, milk tea, junk food, fire, rain, art, intellectual conversations, spontaneous or unusual adventures.

Dislikes mornings or any hour between 5am and 12pm, mathematics, seafood, being told what to do or how to feel, authoritative figures (the ones that act superior or are pricks in general), sports except volleyball, talking about his past, a vast majority of disney films, forced cuteness or aegyo.

Hobbies making home films and creative writing.

Secrets find out.

Fears arachnids, death, and needle injections.

Fashion style leather, denim, anything distressed/ripped/torn, bleach stains, acid wash, patches, flannels, trench coats, blazers, bomber jackets, band tees, combat or chelsea boots, grunge and avante garde, chains, belts, harnesses, safety pins, dark or monochrome colors.

Scents pinewood, tobacco, leather, roses, fresh dew.

Tattoos a killjoy spider on his right forearm (x), a painted cross on his left forearm (x), a raven with it's wings spread on his lower left flank (x), and the latin phrase 'vox nihili' which translates to 'voice of nothing' on the nape of his neck (x).

The Quirks Facts About Them.
— learned to play multiple instruments such as guitar, bass guitar, and synth while working as a janitor in a recording studio when he was a teenager.
— often makes amateur films using his vintage vhs camcorder.
— once opened a quaint art gallery in montmarde, paris. it's since been closed due to johnny being deported from france.
— usually prefers to walk, but sometimes likes to cruise at night in his glossy black 1969 ford mustang.
— habitually chews bubble gum, runs his fingers through his hair, and his lips.
— often disc jockeys at the nightclub or takes on side jobs as a painter for extra cashflow.
— battles with chronic depression and severe insomnia.
— loves plants and dreams of having his own greenhouse.

Lover

a

mmddyyyy

b

status

forever alone.

Out of Character

ONE. you can refer to me by my muse's name, my user, or whatever you want. honestly idc as long as i know you are referring to me i'm cool with whatever ooc name.

TWO. rooms > walls > pms. let's keep this place active and use the rooms provided!

THREE. i will do either 3rd or detailed 1st pov. 3rd will get you much more descriptive replies whereas 1st will get you quicker replies from me. i have no true preference.

FOUR. almost any genre is good and i'm comfortable with. though i seem to do best with drama, angst, and friendship/fluff. i will accept as long as there is some plot to it and our characters have been acquainted. i'm not gonna have johnny randomly some stranger and then nothing happens afterwards lmao. i want actual relationships and character development, thanks.

FIVE. my timezone is pst / gmt–8. i live in los angeles, california if that helps to put things into perspective.

SIX. pm me to discuss plot or have ooc conversations. i might do some rp in pm, but it is extremely rare and i'd probably only do pm rp if it's . please keep all ooc off my walls!

SEVEN. my activity differs depending on my ooc life. usually i will check rpr daily and might pop into the chat, but i won't always have the time to give constant replies. feel free to poke me if i haven't replied in 48 hours (two days).

Scenarios

dearly detested.

rivalry. anyone except fans (sorry rip). m or f. open.

johnny is probably the worst, most frustrating person you have ever had the displeasure of dealing with. no matter what you do or say, he can't seem to stop himself from making your work life a living hell. he thinks you're a pseudo–dictator trying to control him. whether he's right or wrong, it seems impossible to change his mind.

something i can never have.

sister/brother figure, friendship. female. open.

after johnny suffers a mental breakdown, he turns to you for help. taking pity on the poor soul, you talk and get him to open up. eventually you form a friendship. often he'll find you to catch up and bring you small gifts or leaving cute notes behind for you to see. he looks up to you and seeks your approval, which is rare. he sees you as a replacement for his real family without even realizing it. johnny isn't thinking about just how much pressure he's putting on you.

this isn't meant to last.

friendship, (?). female. open.

whatever brought you together, whatever lured you to each other, you and johnny have become instant companions. usually you meet when you're both bloodthirsty, hoping to kill your mutual enemy: loneliness. often you are clingy, affectionate, and rely on each other to feed those cravings for connection. but it's only temporary! when you separate, it's as if the other person doesn't even exist.

happiness in slavery.

frenemies. m or f. open.

you are what johnny believes to be the ultimate example of human conformity. you aspire to lead a relatively normal life. you want to fit in with others, doing whatever is expected of you, following all the rules. even though you are fine living this way, johnny feels pitiful at how you can be so content in such a dull life (by his standards). he is determined to break you from your shell and loosen you up. he challenges you and pushes your boundaries, but maybe it's all too much for you to handle.

the whip of discipline.

frenemies. m or f. open.

essentially "happiness in slavery" scenario, but the roles are reversed. johnny is a little too wild and unruly. so much that his behavior has begun to affect your friendship together. he keeps getting you into trouble and finally he's crossed the line. if your friendship has any chance of continuing, he'll have to learn to behave well and you've insisted on being his teacher. although he clearly hates it and resists your demands.

seek and destroy.

friendship. m or f. open.

as much as humanity loves to create, we also love to destroy. which is exactly the sort of shenanigans you and johnny get up to. ripping to shreds, burning to ash, or defiling beyond recognition. there's no stopping you from running down the path of desolation hand in hand.

gothic assimilation.

friendship. m or f. open.

whatever you are outside of johnny#39;s world is completely your choice, but each time you meet with him, you are immediately installed into his dark and peculiar lifestyle. gothic makeovers, rock raves, and eerie adventures galore.

autopsy for a dream.

friendship. m or f. open.

depression has consumed johnny#39;s soul and him dry of all creative muse. he can't bring himself to write, film, paint, or even play a little tune. you also have succumbed to your own state of misery. maybe you aren't the most sunshine–y together, but at least you won't have to suffer alone. hell, you might even be able to help each other out of the rut.

coquettish asphyxia.

frenemies(?). m or f. open.

just the average case of a crush gone wrong. you befriend johnny and admire him in secret, hoping for something more. maybe he'd have gone along with it too. that was until you began suffocating him with your affections and aspirations. now he's gasping for a breath, dying to escape your emotional chokehold.

a personal hellfire.

rivalry. male. open.

a plethora of reasons brings you and johnny to hate each other with a fiery passion. absolutely nothing could stop the wrath that pursues against each other. put downs, one ups, petty pranks, and maybe even some fisticuffs. "beef" would be an understatement.

Tracker

HWASA: main hall.

ALLISON: plan b café.

NAME: status.

NAME: status.

NAME: status.

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