I am going to apologize now for the fact that none of this is going to make any sense. It's going to be nothing but word vomit from thoughts that overrun eachother.I truthfully don't know where to start-- perhaps I should start with an apology. I'm sorry you have to deal with someone as depressing, clingy and annoying as me. But god, I love you so much. I know I've said this before,but you are the first person I've developed an emotional connection with before a ual one. It's rare that that happens. When I first met you, ironically, it was in the rated room-- but I was just looking for a friend at the time being. Perhaps it was what you said to me at the time, your words were comforting during that period, because I felt extremely down at the time, that drew me towards you. But since day one, I found myself waiting for your presence to be able to talk to you. At first, it was just me longing for an actual friendship. But then, after a couple of days, I found myself developing something for you a lot deeper than I would have liked to admit at the time. I tried to ignore how I felt towards you. I tried to ignore the fact that I always wanted to be around you. I always wanted your attention. I always wanted to see you smile and hear you life-- things that if I were the cause of, it would make my day. But then, there was an incident, I'm sure you remember which one-- the kisses you recieved from another. When it happened, I felt...jealous. I didn't want anyone else kissing you. I wanted to be selfish and keep that type of affection to myself, but I knew I couldn't. It was ridiculous to want that so I attempted to push it down. That obviously failed once I admitted to my jealousy and grew a bit possesive. The affection that you gave me, I was nearly positive it was just out of kindness-- but I couldn't help the fact that it constantly made my heart flutter and face turn red. I began to enjoy every second I spent with you. Eventually, I confused my feeling to you and , I was nervous and certain that you were going to reject me- I pretty much prepared myself for being told that you only saw me as a friend but..that wasn't the case and up to now, I'm still shocked that you like me, let alone love me. And that's another thing, love; I'm terrified of it. I'm terrified of messing things up with you like I normally do. I tend to be clingy and emotional too often and sometimes it gets to the point where...people resent me and/or don't want me anymore..be it as a lover or just a friend. And I don't want that to happen with you because...I love you a lot. You make me happier than anyone has ever made me. Everything we do together makes me overly happy and I look forward to all the adventures we're going to have with one another. I can't put into words why I love you-- but I can say that you have become a person that I can't see a future without. You keep me grounded. You keep me happy. You're more than just someone I've fallen deeply in love with-- you're someone I can trust with things I wouldn't normally trust someone with. I love you. And though we aren't officially together yet...thank you for being mine.
mine
my love
my everything
my happiness
ri yue yao 27 minutes ago Reply
@lee minhyuk I keep it safe in a case just like the enchanted rose, in case you were wondering. No one is allowed in my west wing~
with a playful tone, I straighten up once more and tilt my chin up in the slightest to adjust the collar of my shirt before my hands returned to their place upon my hips, which soon juts out to one side as I lean my weight over into it
And to think you tried to pull a 'I blush like a normal person' card earlier. Here you are turning into a tomato again and it's only been a few hours.
snickering softly, I reach up to thread my fingers through your hair before nodding
Yes, I mean it. I'll go sleep for a few hours, just for you, okay?
